Nicole Summers

r/ElliottSmith is discussing if he owned an iPhone.

My therapist was giving me shit on being antisocial. I told her my new cat isn't mean, she likes seeing people but only if they stay a distance and don't come in her house. Therapist: Sounds familiar. Me: Oh my God, how am I raising my cat?!

My mom visited me last night in a dream. Or rather, I climbed snow mountains to reach her. She rebuilt our home and the cold sun is incredible. Downside to the reunion; she sat her down at the kitchen table and said someone will have trouble waking up from surgery.

Nightmind gave me an intro to Poppy's lore on YouTube & I saw her 1st in 2018. She's got a few rabbit holes covered in concrete. If she ever needs a new way out she makes one for herself. Reinventing & redacting what she wants, Poppy has filled the crown with media, music, & presence on her tours.

Upset that Taylor Swift used the Ophelia painting pose in her album cover. Now I can't use it for how many years? It does give me pause, like every time I see it in my head and never use a model. Does it say art student?
Maybe I should let the autumn leaves sink to the bottom of the pool.

YouTube video by onlygoodmusic James Live @ Woodstock - Laid - 1994-08-14

James is playing the Showbox this Saturday. If this post receives a like or comment, I will go to the concert. Tell me if I should go as fan or photographer.

Oh. I am depressed. 😂
Nobody like or comment.

I have a new contender for my social media profiles:
My psychiatrist thinks you should hire me for the photo art gig because I need to get out of my house. I leave the depression at home.

I was telling my visiting cousin about how I am scared to walk alone after a scary movie in the theater. Cousin: If you hang out with these crows, I think you can handle that. Me: Are they scary? Farmer cousin: A little bit.

Seattle's first venture into plumbing is fascinating. Thomas Crapper brought us indoor plumbing but Elliott Bay's high tides forced sewage back into homes, sometimes with enough force to blow the occupant several feet into the air. (Bill Speidel's Underground Seattle Tour)

Went time traveling back to my childhood home in my dream last night and found my mom in bed. I couldn't wake her so I went in her things and found a note in a leather wallet. It took considerable effort to unfold and read. One was "dreams." The other "on the case." I woke up so disoriented.

I had one armful of Trader Joe's groceries and the other hand was free to toss Meow Mix to my neighborhood crow murder. They follow me. Someone yelled out from their car that I was beautiful. It is the crows. They bring that gothic charm to every one of my 'fits. 🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛

My therapist went on vacation to Ireland for a whole month and I am finally seeing her today. I've been with her long term and she has been doing better in her profession and as a person since she started to allow herself to take vacations. Remember to take care of yourself first.

11 years ago I had heavy menstrual bleeding as the result of my liver failing because of alcoholism. I waited to seek medical help for days out of shame. That final night I was vacuuming baby spiders out of my bedroom. I have no idea if it was real. The next day I was receiving a blood transfusion.

Next summer I am going to reserve the cabana and pool for a party. I will play music inside the cabana, maybe rig up what Kevin had in the party people are here scene in Home Alone but with pool toys...and swim in the pool all day by myself without fear of interruption.

Well.
You can't avoid your problems forever.
Especially when it is a leaky washer.

Who do you think will attend Trump's funeral? I can't wait to see the Bushs, Clintons, Obamas, and Bidens catch up in the first or second pew. Kamala and Doug too! So many are going to out live Trump. Hang on my depressed violent Americans. You aren't going to want to miss this. Melania in red?!

If you are looking for a place to scream, dearest #Seattle, the horror exhibit at MOPOP. They have a sound proof booth. They ask you to scream! It felt so good.

(I think I am going to ask my neighbors if they mind me screaming in the parking garage)

"end of you" by poppy, amy lee, and courtney laplante (2025)

I wish my cat had a weird name like Nacho, Chairman Meow, or Noodlehead. Because the vet calls you by pet name. Today I am Dutch.

If another female celebrity shaved her head like Britney Spears, I would understand. I would assume she has had enough of her bangs. I think we've all been at that breaking point.

I feel envious of my peers who are able to push through personal struggles and illnesses. It's like they can swim without stopping, riding their resilience like a wave till they are out of distance. But I can hold my breath longer underwater and when there's danger.

I don't know what I miss more from my dreams, places I have never been or ones I can never go back to again.

Olivia was sleeping on my legs and through her, I visited my old dog. My mom discovers us both quiet and sad. I don't want to leave Mitzi behind. "Well, she should go with you. She's been with you all your life." And then I am struggling down the Seattle street with two cats in a crate and a dog.

When I was a little girl, I used to creep up to my mom's bed in the dark and gently wake her up. She would always gasp from fright. I was being as polite as I could! I do not have small creepy children of my own but my #cats like to poke me in the back at 3am to wake me and it scares me.

I made a new friend at the park. #AI

Her name is Claire.

I am such a loner that my therapist is trying to hook me up with AI. That was a fun conversation! I think I might try an app out to work on my social skills or maybe use it to reduce anxiety with real people. IDK. I prefer my own company. I'm okay. I am just not like everyone else.

I have been seeing my therapist once a week for about ten years only breaking the cycle for holidays and vacations. She's the one who takes the trips. She's going to Ireland. I won't see her for a month. How are we ever going to solve all my life's problems in fifty minutes tomorrow?

So next week I need to finally go to the Pacific Science Center (the dinosaur exhibit is going extinct) and MOPOP (the Nirvana exhibit is being treated like it is something in the way after 14 years and retiring).

Went to the Seattle Central Public Library to return Louise Bourgeois and checked out Lyonel Feininger. I like books with pictures.