Clara

I had a dream the other night where Michelle came in a beautiful black patterned shirt that had small flames all over it. She was herself and she looked beautiful and happy. My son said, "that's a fire Pokemon!" I feel silly being spiritual but I think she finally came to tell me she was okay

Trying to make a Pride mix when I have the music taste of a heterosexual old man who chews tobacco. Anyone who did as much cocaine as George Jones had to have experimented, right???

I am homesick as hell and I miss Michelle. I quit writing after VaGinny died because I just shut down. Substack also made me paranoid because I didn't understand it. Anyway, gonna try to do that again.

I try to be a polite Canadian, but the Mid-Atlantic sass dwells deep within me. I cannot pass a man with a beard and no mustache without at least internally saying "okay, Abe Lincoln"

You know it is time to take a social media break, in these times(tm), when you have a nightmare that Ted Kennedy wants to put you in jail for saying "vagina" over and over again at a party

Has anyone else ever experienced this, where a bunch of terrible things have happened to you in a row and then all you can listen to is Warren Zevon? *Tim Robinson voice* has that ever happened to you?

The older I get, the more I realize that every single person, no matter how good, has at least one huge, awful flaw, and no matter how much they work on it, it still returns, under stress or in other specific circumstances, at the very least. The best we can hope for is to be able to see our own

Is it ever good to just give in to the depression? Drink the gin, build the nest in the bed, eat the donuts until you give yourself metabolic syndrome, etc

I feel like I had a lot more leeway to have an overt breakdown before parenthood

Read Dog Man to my child at bedtime, did Petey in a Gilbert Gottfried voice

This is true! I only burned my throat inhaling the smoke 😭

My spring-forward casualty was our bread machine, which I accidentally melted on the stove today

america does have a crisis of elites. None of them believe in anything, they actively reject the concept of civic virtue, and fundamentally do not believe in consequences

We're gonna move fast and break things. Sometimes we'll make mistakes. If we remove the wrong organ we'll put it back in. We are disrupting surgery

YouTube video by neveralone71 Arrogant Worms~War Of 1812 bicentennial by moi

For anyone who doesn't know the song (you should) - youtu.be/Fsfz3f18NxU?...

🎵and we're the ones that did it🎵

(Also, this is good Toronto beer!!)

Living far away from home with no family close by, especially if you have children, chosen family is so important. It gives you a village, because raising kids is *hard*. Such a profound loss for us, two weeks ago, and right after my siblings. I haven't wanted to write, talk, or do much.

Move over, Ozempic. Norovirus is in the house

Coincidentally, we ended up near the Shel Silverstein shelf at the library today, checked out Where The Sidewalk Ends, and my almost-6 year old has been enjoying the same silly poems and sketches I loved over 30 years ago

[NB yes I know about MK Ultra's involvement in Canada and how horrible it was - please just let me have this joke; it was such a stark example of how outsized US politics are here, while people ignore our own and let people like Ford destroy everything good about our province]

(2/2) Yesterday, a schizophrenic man on the streetcar was fretting about being followed by the CIA and FBI in an extremely Canadian accent. CSIS shed a tear.

Spoiler alert - yes it was! Make all the public amenities and institutions suck, convince people these public goods are inefficient and shitty, let private industry take over and get rich. All RFK Jr cares about is lining his pockets with anti-vax grifter money (and feeding his worm rotting meat)

The irony is, this is setting the stage for RFK Jr.'s much-reviled "big pharma" being the only entities who can save elderly folks, little kids, and pregnant people from dying of the flu in the US next season - was this the plan, or

I've been assaulted with the fact that anybody I love can die at any time, but what am I supposed to do with this information when all I want to do is cry and sleep?

If my [US expat] timelines are any indication, 45/7's biggest accomplishments so far have been a) getting Americans to care about hockey and b) getting them to root for Canada instead of the US

At this point, I am worried people are going to think I am making it up. What the fuck.

My best friend in Toronto, who was like an aunt to both kids, died last night.. some of you knew her. If you are a Chochacho, get in touch with me. Much love ❤️💔

I am remembering Michelle by playing my music again, with her and Gordon Lightfoot watching over me, and a Big Leo Energy guitar strap. She was the only member of my family who wasn't annoyed by my folk singing when I lived at home. She sang with me all the time.

oh no