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had a salad and a salmon fillet for today’s omad b4 my fast, i wanna go at least 24hrs we r so back

being able to see my avg cals i’ve eaten is rly comforting esp coming out of a maintenance day and seeing the scale skyrocket haha ha. ha. (losing it)

yeah i’m not gonna see daylight for a few weeks lmao

friendship ended w food, now obl*vion remastered is my best friend

how i feel researching nutrition for my 3d knowing damn well im gonna break my 20 hour f@st with junk food

hi, if you have an ED and actively trying to lose weight or are worried about the bans, join our edsky discord server !! discord.gg/bG6rTE8n this is what we are currently doing. stats are optional and in a private chat. its just a nice place for us to support each other n chat so join us✨

ayy thanks dude!

ok nvm so the day after i posted this i immediately fucked up my progress in a horrific depressive spiral lmfao

at least i didn’t gain as much as i thought i would have??? hahaha??? hahahAhAHA

fuck

lowkey how i want to look

a raccoon is looking out of a green door ALT: a raccoon is looking out of a green door

the holidays have thoroughly and irreversibly fucked my shit up so. guess who’s back on they bullshit
#caterpillarsky

#caterpillarsky ok plateau cancelled body stopped being a lil bitch and we are down 2 kgs boys LETS GOOOO

that’s… totally fair LMAO i did end up breaking my fast w some oreos so hoping it was just low blood sugar lol

#caterpillarsky

chat is it normal to lowkey hallucinate during a fast 😶 i’m barely breaking 30hrs and i keep seeing shadows moving in the corner of my vision 💀

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

fuck off fuck this plateau shit pissing me tf off. my body wanna play these fucking games w me then only thing it’s getting is supplements and meds. idgaf if i crash out atp im so tired of this shit

tfw plateauing

i do a lot of strength workouts cause i’m lowkey terrified of my bmr dropping

#edsky #caterpillarsky #edmemes

#caterpillarsky binged this morning :/ fuck it i’m overdue for a metab day anyway i’ll just drink a protein shake and that’ll be my dinner today

At least my eating disorder gives me a reason to keep living to see another day (and a smaller number in the scale) haha take that suicid*l thoughts

nah gtf outta here man lmao

#caterpillarsky
> hmm i should distract myself from constantly thinking about ed for once
> boot up the s*ms 4
> start making my character, adjusting the weight slider slightly
> rib bones start showing
> fuck

tw vent bordering on fatphobic

tf kinda right do u have calling me a pig when you’ve spent thousands of $ and hours on weight loss shit and yet i’ve still lost more weight in a month than u’ve ever managed. slow metabolism my ass you’ve always been better at making excuses than actually changing

i am going to kiss protein powder on the lips. sloppy style #caterpillarsky

try mouthwash, it tastes disgusting but it also makes everything else taste disgusting too lol

i hate being dizzy everytime i skip breakfast like bruh stop being dramatic im literally just standing

man i want a weighted vest/leggings so bad 🫠 gonna settle for putting a shit ton of water bottles in my backpack ig lol

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