Nataniel

fuck them airport fries man, I didn't know fucking up fries like that was even possible

today's one was diabolical, first it made me experience something that would hurt me the most while making it feel unquestionably real, followed by a nightmare I'm pretty sure I've already had in the past 😭 just woke up and I feel like crying

can my mind cooperate for once and not make me experience the thing's I'm so desperately trying to heal from over and over and over again in my dreams PLEASE

happy for you, hopefully the recovery will go smoothly ; )

that's so good, you're gonna do great ; )

most of my calorie intake be coming from alcohol these days 😭

plateau 👎🏻

how so?

my pants just fell off my ass 😭 luckily not in public but damn -_-

therapy in 8 minutes I'm so nervous this is the 2nd time I'll be seeing her, I have so much to talk about it's been difficult to only choose one thing to focus on

I FINALLY HAVE A 5 IN THE FRONT 59KG ITS SO OVER FOR ALL OF YOU

I've been cleaning all day today so far and I'm so happy about it, my room was such a mess and needed some decluttering

I am speeding

y'all ever stretch so hard you nearly pass out? the morning stretches go hard until my vision goes black

did you have the same pfp?

being an alter based on a "divine being" is so annoying, I don't even feel real most of the time I just feel like an oc even though deep down I know I'm not. it makes me feel inferior yet also gives me a massive ego, I wish I could just live without it like a normal person.

the scale is telling me I gained sm over the past 3 days but I havent been eating much ;-;

halfway through my ice cream I stopped wanting to eat it yet I still did because I wanted the stupid wooden stick to chew on like I'm some beaver fml

should have checked the comments before I spent 10 minutes searching for it smh
at least we came to the same conclusion

after months of putting it off I finally decided to go see a therapist again, my appointment is tomorrow. I'm stressed but also hopeful, maybe she wont be that bad

currenrly eating while I'm waiting for my food to be ready, feeling so fat 💀💀

yes girl gas him

I wonder how many steps I take just pacing around my room for 1-3 hours straight nearly everyday

right.... that's just what we needed, love to see it 🩷 /s

now I'm intrigued ;-; what is it?

I'm all alone today and I'm feeling so bored, I've got no one to talk to T_T

I made a backup account guyz, go follow if you wanna : )
@weeping-garden0.bsky.social

I want some rain tooo, do you go out in the rain? putting on some clothes you can dirty and jumping into puddles and rolling on the wet grass is always sm fun, even more fun with a friend : ) it's so freeing

I don't feel disordered enough to be here. It's not like I want to be deathly skinny or self destruct, my ugw is within the healthy range for my height and I want to look healthy... my relationship with food is still fucked up and I struggle with mental health but I constantly feel not sick enough

I'm getting close to my ugw, I'll reach it in the near future... but then what? All my teenage years revolved around losing weight and gaining it back and then some. Now I'm pretty sure I can maintain my ugw but my disordered eating is such a big part of my life, what do I do then?
#edbsky