Alex Lankio

Remember to take care of your mental health and rest

I am surprised how time after time instead of a carrot they offer a stick. Continuous penalties instead of making the not-camping/tunneling/etc more fun and viable just don't work. it's like, the company doesn't understand game heuristics at all? 😭

Wow I'm always jealous when someone is able to do pretty notes. Mine always looks like i was taken over by lovecraftian madness because my handwriting and drawing be wonkyy

Loud classrooms are rough. Having to keep staring people's faces because I can't understand their speaking at all without reading their lips is exhausting. Audio processing issues suckk😭 and school system rarely takes notice of it

life is great. I am blessed.

I love my today's #decorakei inspired coord. :P I'm still building my decor stash so it's not as maximalist as i wished but I'm really happy about it still!

for the longest time i finally created some art and decided to paint a turtle. It turned out amazing. I haven't painted in years so i was bit afraid i had forgotten everything.

Open source is the only cool tech pass it on.

this is, hands down, the best video I've seen on men's influencer content and it's not close either

My school has given me a permission for 10 hours of remedial teaching per YEAR. That I'm already scared of asking because of my past.

But it also makes me hate my brain even more because why can't I learn like a normal person. Sometimes I feel like I'm missing a cog everyone else has.
And I know ai is so fucking bad for the environment and people. Boy am I aware of it. I hate this. so. much.

It's the only thing that doesn't sigh passively aggressively or straight up give up, after a long explanation, when I go "I still don't get why X works like this". It doesn't make me cry because I feel too stupid.

I'm just trying to survive, to be able to learn. To be able to get a job someday. I never use it to do any work for me. Just to explain why something works like it does, like I use it to dissect the thing till the ground until i finally get it.

I admit. I use AI a lot. To explain concepts to me, that I just. Don't. Get. Maybe someday I can ask actual humans, but in the past I have been yelled at when I have been too stupid and gotten stuck while learning and somebody has tried to teach me. Don't worry, I already feel bad about this.

bad paint painting of myself

i really like my profile picture, but i also like this, the picture i drew for the Slack of a course I'm attending soon. It's pure art.

I'm so tired of the "hyper realistic unreal engine" graphics style on the big name games. They all look the same and soulless.

But yeah, idk of anyone cares or if posting this looks bad. I just needed to get this out of my chest. (among with lot of other things lol)

To find anything good out of my time on game studies: I understand OOP and UX heuristics pretty well now. I'm sure i picked up some info that will help me with full stack stuff. I appreciate games differently nowadays and maybe want to create some as a hobby in the future.

I was also supposed to create a game studio with my friend, but they were diagnosed a serious illness that will worsen with time, so we had to scrap that. I was enduring a lot for that dream, but sometimes life just happens.

also my dysphoria has been of the charts for a while now. Still not enough money to get a top surgery. I can't keep suffocating myself with the fucking binders for a long anymore.

I've not been well. I quit my game dev studies, and switched into fullstack studies beginning this autumn. I just couldn't continue with games. Only thing I got was a burnout and depression because nothing was enough. I also need to get a job and pay my living asap.

after a week of a hard thonk and rubbing my braincells together it finally clicked somehow lmao. :D But slow and steady is better than nothing!

I'm starting to get a grasp of the commander pattern. I have already learned limited state machines, observer pattern, pooling and so much more this year. The problem arising seems to be, how to connect all of these patterns together. 😅 I plan to learn that this summer!! #gamedev #indiedev

I'm spending too much time with cats. I realized I slow blink at humans too. 🫠 help-

btw, it's free!!! #gamedev #indiedev

Happy pride! I love #mansepride march day, one of my favorite days of the year.

I'm trying to wrap my head around the command pattern, and my brain hurts. 😭 I feel like it'll take a sec before it clicks, and I understand what is going on. #gamedev #student

There's two types of cats

Every solodev or microdev I know would love to hire and pay their dev friends, actually.

He has living with us for bit a week now, and this is the first time I saw him going full bonkers x3