BlackSheepWidow

Your answers indicate you may be experiencing symptoms of moderate to severe depression at this time.

Apple Health suggested a Mental Health quiz. Yeah, I’m sad… most of the time 😢 #grief

I’ve been thinking much about grieving alone 💔 In my case estranged and/or disengaged family, close friends who have passed, acquaintances who have their own lives… It’s very lonely 😢 I may write about it.. not really an author. I’m stronger than I think.

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"You handled it so well" No, I didn't. I went insane, lost my spark, bled in silence, shattered in private, and wore a smile that lied better than any mask could. I had no choice but to survive

Yup 💔 3ambrokeness on IG

Sending all the love 💕

There’s nobody here either, eh? Sigh…

Just like that, we leave sad May behind when the calendar changes. Random days, defined by script. Part of me is relieved.. the other part is still lost, still sad.. that you’re not coming with me 😢

They say grief is love with nowhere to go. But that's not true. It goes everywhere. It seeps into your mornings, into the silence between waking and remembering. It's in the way you still make too much coffee out of habit, not hope. In the way you set out two mugs, then put one back without saying a word. Grief doesn't stay still. It finds them. It finds you. It follows you into rooms they've never been in. Into moments they were never part of. It's in the way you still look for them in crowds even though you know better. Because grief is not just missing someone. It's missing the parts of you that existed only in their presence. The laugh they used to pull out of you so easily. The hope you didn't even realize you carried until you couldn't anymore. It's becoming a stranger to the person you used to be when you were loved by them. And the cruelest part? They'll never know who you are now. They'll never meet the version of you that had to survive them. The one that got left behind. The one that wakes up with tired eyes and still gets out of bed, not because they're okay, but because they don't know what else to do. The one who's a little colder now. A little more cautious. Even with love. You think about who you've become since they left. And some nights, you wonder if they'd even recognize you. I mean, do you? Would they still love this version of you? This slower, heavier thing. Would they look at you the way they used to, with light in their eyes? Or would they feel like they've lost you, too? Because grief didn't really take them. It took you. They left, but it was you who disappeared. R.K. NIGHTINGALE

Profound 💔
From r.k.nightingale on IG
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I think I might be broken… beyond repair 💔

Your In-Store COVID-19 Vaccine Adult - Ages 12+) appointment for 1 person(s) with Rexall Drugstore has been booked for May-29 02:50 pm

The second time I’ve booked for “1”. It doesn’t get easier 💔

You were supposed to call… I’m sorry, I forgot (I was sitting on the couch, sobbing 😢) #widow #grief

Let me guess...you thought you were doing better? And then out of nowhere, bam. The tears. The ache. The guilt. The weight. Listen, grief isn't linear. It doesn't follow a schedule. You didn't do anything wrong. You're not starting over. You're looping through. It's normal to feel better one week and undone the next. Grief isn't a straight line, it's a spiral. And you're allowed to spiral without explanation. p.p.griffith IG

I was never one for rides. I’d like to get off now, please 🙏 #grief

There’s a nano-second when I wake before that neuron fires to remind me you’re not here. I wish I could live in that nano-second 😢 #widow #grief

I’m trying to remember the happy times, the good life but my brain is overwhelmed with sadness and pain 💔 #grief #widow

We’re entirely alone in grief. The world and everyone we know has moved on with their very busy, happy lives. Not one call, one text, one post. It’s so very lonely here. I miss you 😢

One year today 😢 In my mind, you’re right here.. waiting for me.