Sean (they/them)

Hi everyone. If you'll indulge me, I want to give a bit of a life update. I'm going to stop streaming for a while and take a break from my main account on Bluesky for... several reasons. Firstly and most bluntly, my Bluesky feed is about two-thirds politics. Reading about the man-made horrors beyond my comprehension that occur every day is starting to take a toll. But that's nothing special; everyone here is experiencing that. When I jumped into the Magic streaming space in March, I met a lot of people really quickly and got a lot of encouragement, which has led me to be able to call a lot of people my friends. The trouble is that these friends are online, and when you can't meet people face-to-face, it's hard for me to understand our interpersonal relationship. As a child, I got bullied. A lot. The knock-on effect is that I often become obsessed with if people "actually" like me, or just "tolerate me." This in tandem interacting with streaming Magic has led me to focus on the wrong thing: the people instead of the Magic. Don't get me wrong, I love everyone I've interacted with! But respectfully, trying to gauge so many brand new interpersonal relations with dozens and dozens of people all at once has taken the magic out of streaming Magic for me. It's just a lot to think about. On top of this, one interpersonal relationship I've had online and IRL was extremely negative, and without going into detail, I take full responsibility for it. I feel disgusting about it, I deeply regret what I've done, and though I ask for forgiveness, I don't expect to be forgiven. All of these factors combined have caused me to have panic attacks nearly every time I open Bluesky for the past couple of weeks. Interspersed among streaming accomplishments and going-live announcement of the people I care about are constant bombardments of things that, frankly, scare the shit out of me. Just writing out my thoughts here are giving me the jitters and making me sick to my stomach.

And outside my computer, I'm going through so many changes in my life right now. I'm just about to hit two months on estrogen. I'm working my ass off at work to try and convert my part-time job to full-time. My boyfriend and I have a friend living with us who we're trying to help get back on their feet. I go and hang out with friend groups nearly every day to justify my brain's need to know that people like me. And today, I learned that one of my only friends from college passed away recently. Respectfully, I'm exhausted. I'm going to pause streaming probably until after MagicCon Atlanta. I think what's best for me at the moment is to get away from politics, log off for a bit, and spend time with my boyfriend and our IRL friends. In September, I imagine I'll be a completely different person than I am now and than I was before beginning to stream; physically, mentally, emotionally, and more importantly, interpersonally. Hopefully by then, a lot of my outside stressors will be gone, and I can interact with my online friends in a healthier way. I'd love to meet all the people I've talked to over the past four months. I want to shake your hand, give you a hug, shuffle up a game, and hand you a Sharpie to sign one of my cards. And once I get to know everyone face-to-face, I think I'll be more comfortable streaming, but I'm not sure. I'm sorry for letting down those who encouraged me to push further with streaming. I'm sorry for pestering people online for the sake of my brain's annoying needs, and most importantly, I'm sorry for throwing away my trust and friendships with some of the people I've met over the past while. For now, I may guest from time to time, but I think I'll be more comfortable existing in the background with my boyfriend. If you need me, you can reach out on Discord. Until then, I'll see y'all on the other side. sean.

I'm going to take a break. I hope y'all can forgive me.

NICE CONGRATS

Top 8 playmat for cube Championship.

Gonna do a bigger wrap-up thread tomorrow, but I just finished in the money my first time playing cube. Def won't be the last. That was so fun!

Top 8 play mat is siiiick.

I'm considering the same, honestly. I need a day to relax.

Good luck!

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and we are back with the HOTTIE POD of the week- we're doing Secret Partners! Don't miss us this Saturday at 1pm pacific <3

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We are going to be starting a little late tonight folks, but come hang out! Great pod on the way.

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Incredibly proud to join this amazing group of creators. Thank you all so much for coming together and supporting me on my journey.

Let's see how far we can go together. Let's see what good we can do.

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wait when did they start calling lindbergh center "uptown"? absolutely the fuck not I am not doing that shit

Truly I deserve every second of suffering I receive

Ugh. Got on the wrong train and now I'm making my boyfriend wait EVEN LONGER for me. Not what I needed right now.

My mental health might be shit right now but I have boobs and a boyfriend so it can't be that bad

*getting waterboarded* did you pay the channel points for this?

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Tonight at ~9p est stop by to listen to us talk about our favorite beasties in MtG! It's the re-fire of the Pride month Monster "Enjoyer" Pod!

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I know @elestrals.bsky.social isn't MASSIVE on bluesky, but I wanted to put the announcement that prior to the CardsHQ premiere next Saturday, my LGS is hosting an uncut sheet + stellar tournament! Spread the word & signup here:

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It's time for Brewsday! (In about 2 hours)
Join us on twitch at 7PM where we'll brew and play with completely random commanders, we have no idea what we'll be playing! Featuring
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One slot filled! Just need one more for tonight’s brewsday stream at 7 Eastern

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When catastrophic floodwaters surged through Kerr County in Texas last week, there were no sirens or early flooding monitors. Officials had considered installing a flood warning system in 2017, but it was rejected as too expensive. https://trib.al/Wmybccf

Oh wow an actual RedFade stream schedule? Here's what's on the slate this week!

Monday - Brewsday with @laufeysongaming.bsky.social @mtgcritical.bsky.social @enbysean.bsky.social
Tuesday - Birthday stream!
Wednesday - Guesting on @queenofcardboard.com
Thursday - Thursday Night Commander (Pod TBD)

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