Ghost 🖤👻

Turns out, when creepy old guys make nasty comments, they REALLY don't like being called out for sexual harassment.

Turns out, it's REALLY fun to call them a "pour pout fish" when they start grumbling about being called out! 😆

Turns out, when creepy old guys make nasty comments, they REALLY don't like being called out for sexual harassment.

Turns out, it's REALLY fun to call them a "pour pout fish" when they start grumbling about being called out! 😆

Me: remember those trust issues I have... Hard to trust people when you're regularly shown that people don't fucking care.

Therapist: you need to learn to ask for AND accept help.

Me: *asks for and accepts help*

So-called help: *abuse* *additional trauma* *lies* *deceit* *manipulation* *literally kicking you when you're down*

Learning how to rest is hard.
Learning that I don't have to *earn* rest is hard.
Learning to not equate "productive" with my worth/value is hard.

I can do hard things, but these are where I'm currently struggling

Cat: *walks with claws out*
Also cat: EWW! WHY IS YOUR FABRIC STICKING TO ME? REMOVE IT IMMEDIATELY!
ME: *removes caught claws*
Cat: DO NOT TOUCH MY BEANS YOU PEASANT!
ME: 🤦🏻

I want to make some big changes in my life, but I have so many commitments coming up. *sigh* I guess that helps rein me in a little, and gives me time to really consider my options

I FOUND REDPOP!!!!!

I haven't found this in Colorado in the 20 years I've lived here!? Stopped at a random convenience store and there it was!

Why do stress and chaos ALWAYS have to pile up?? I'm tired. I'm drained. *I* don't want to people 😞

Your kids do not owe you shit. If you want a relationship with your kids, you have to give them a reason to want one with you.

Me: *takes a warm bath to try encouraging my body to relax*

My body: so you got part of us warm, then left us in the cold!? We're going to start itching and hurting so your bath is more of a nuisance than it is helpful! 😝

Me: FUCK MY LIFE! This body is a problem child! 😭

I just saw this posted elsewhere and felt it so deep.

"Heard someone say "accidentally spent all my life making sure everyone else around me feels comfortable, only to realise I never felt comfortable the whole time" and wow I felt that"

Why are kids better at communication than most adults!?!?

Trauma sucks ass. I hate this. It's illogical. It's senseless. It's so fucking hard. I didn't ask for this. I didn't create this. Why do I have to carry it all? 😭

Today was the first day waking up NOT a homeowner, after 18 years and 11.5 months. This feels good! I'm ready for the changes, healing, and adventure!

I'm done. That sucked so many stinky, crusty, dingle berries, but it is done and I don't have to go back in there again

Yeah, but dropping 6 flossers broke me today. If I don't hold it together, I'm really going to really break and it may take 3-74 business years to recover 🤪😅

That's an option!?!?!?

I'm going to cry...

...but not yet, because there's too much to do 🤪

Hire help - they said.
It'll save you - they said.

Save me money? Absolutely not!
Save me stress? Apparently not, but they've added more and they aren't even here yet.
Save me time? Uncertain, since they've wasted an hour already.

I HATE moving. I farting despise moving 😭

Legit

But it didn't poof!

I'm not overwhelmed and on the verge of a panic. I'm not overwhelmed and on the verge of a panic. I'm not overwhelmed and on the verge of a panic. I'm not overwhelmed and on the verge of a panic. I'm not overwhelmed and on the verge of a panic. I'm not overwhelmed and on the verge of a panic. 😉🤪

Today I'm struggling. That's it. That's the entire post.

Now is NOT the time for a complete meltdown. 😭 Especially when I can't cry, because I know if I let myself start, I'm not going to start for a while...

Dear Universe,
Can just ONE thing go well? Pretty please with a cherry on top 🥺

Signed,
An exhausted 👻

Went to Ren Faire today (yesterday technically, but I haven't gone to bed yet) and ran into several people I know! The best part is befriending a small clump of awesome goblin peeps, only then to have their friend walk up and it be one of your peeps! 😆💙

being allergic to your own sweat is a wild adventure!

I was told this is the Good Place, but I'm definitely the main character in the Bad Place and the demons think it's fucking hilarious to keep fucking with me.

Who else is a main character with me? Were we assigned soulmates? Neighbors? Completely secluded?

FUCK 🤬

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