dawn

happy "transgender awareness week"

always remember that vague "awareness" without support and protection is nothing but a targeting system

i love autumn and im often disappointed in artistic representations of the season. the foliage has such an array of vibrant colors but most people are just like "uhh yeah dark orange i guess"

conspiracy where june is secretly a puppet controlled by a smaller version of june in her head

trying my best to transfer my dysphoric thoughts of "im not a real girl" or "i look like a man" into something more healthy, like "im just an ugly girl"

deer who wears tuning forks on its head as "antlers" for gender reasons and has the unfortunate side effect of hearing ....Things

uh oh i painted again

if you put all the things you create into a big pile it eventually becomes trash and you can get rid of it. thats what i do :)

uh oh i painted again

like..."you shouldn't care about conventional beauty standards...but only up to a certain point. being ugly is still scary!"
idk maybe I'm misreading it

narratives like The Substance are kinda weird. the main lesson is that chasing eternal youth and beauty is bad, but the main way of warning against this is by having the main character become more ugly/old for wanting it too much. feels a bit like mixed messages?

also she had the shoes i want but cant get. yet another unrealistic standard

i watched The Substance. my main takeaway is that being a hot girl seems great

good news: there are rosy maple moths in our backyard!!
bad news: we only know this because the caterpillars are shitting all over our deck

and you say you're bad at freehand??

dating app based on what ringtone you chose

anyway sorry if this is too personal for someone you dont really know (but we have chatted at monday stream so actually we're best friends if you think about it????) i just really felt the comic strongly and wanted to share something!!

most of the bad things in my life have been at least partially caused by my own actions, so it feels unfair for me to identify with a "real victim"...i mean sure im a victim of capitalism (and a society that hates mentally ill queers like myself) but who isnt

i totally feel this way as well. but i weirdly feel like i dont...deserve to? i feel like in order to identify with these types of characters i need to have had some sort of big traumatic event or abuse, but those things in my life have been relatively minor...well on paper at least

i started watching a gamer girl youtuber partially because i thought she was trans, but it turns out shes actually cis. so now i just have a crush on a Regular Woman?? stupid

@whoismonday.bsky.social i was playing around with video feedback while watching your latest arctic egg vod and wouldnt you know it i seem to have fried up my very own egg over here

more video feedback experiments. this time mirroring my phone screen on a smart tv. often too laggy but still fun

playing around with visual feedback using my phone and projector

i usually avoid killing spiders but this bitch made a web in the middle of my kitchen at 4am. yes i walked into it, youre welcome

just learned what a video synthesizer is nobody talk to me for 8 weeks

watercolor painting of a hibiscus flower with greenery over a brick floor

painted this for my gma's bda'y

I do not think I've read anything that feels so sincerely written for people who have ever at any point felt that Great Grinding Fear. It's like a love letter for freaks written in a car crash.

Read Loner Dog.

in school i was voted most likely to die in a room full of modular synthesizer

other trans girls are like "boohoo im so lonely i only have 5 girlfriends". meanwhile my only friend is a 90 year old fisherman who lives in a cave

currently eating dinner with the bowl right in front of my face. why dont we normally eat this way? what dumbass decided it was good to put the food as far away from our face as possible?

sucks i missed the 27 club. whats even the point of dying now