k3lz3y 🖤

full on sobbing LOL 🤣 tiktok keeps showing me 1D stuff! and i’m feeling ✨nostalgic✨ (plus i wasn’t disabled back then. those were the days… 🚬)

ummm… guys? i’m genuinely crying over 1D rn 😞

me as fuck ngl

when i lived in chicago, same! i agree!
but now i’m back in st. louis (missouri)… not the city of STL! no, just stl county. aka the suburbs.
and my neighborhood in particular has a LOT of old people (especially crazy ones, mostly maga maggots). so to them? anything is a crime LOL 🤣

he’s not much of a cuddler (ESPECIALLY compared to butterscotch! because butterscotch is the definition of “clingy.” i love it though), teddy prefers playing and independence! so when he *does* jump on my bed? for cuddles and pets? it’s major news!

big announcement: teddy is on my bed!

i have GOT to see if i have the screenshots still! it happened maybe 2 years ago now? but it’s still SO funny to me 🤣

it makes me laugh too bc it’s so absurd! 🤣
my walking was “suspicious” bc of the time (i was going for walks between 1am-4am)
but in regards to his later comment, that’s exactly what i said! why would i tell anyone? i tried to hide! but he doubled down & said “for an alibi / cover up story” LOL

“kelsey, why do you always spam posts between 12am-6am?” because i’m lonely! my only irl friend is asleep & so are my sisters!
sometimes talking to myself out loud, or talking to butterscotch & teddy isn’t enough 💔

maybe i have to wait until AFTER spine surgery (if i actually pass all the ‘tests’ which will take MONTHS… so surgery will be *far* in the future) to actually go for walks again 😭💔

i tried to walk but by the time i left the driveway, my body said “AHHH!!! NO!!! OW!!!”

thank GOD! i’m glad you understand!
thank you for the reassurance 🥹

uh oh… is it crash out time?
*checks invisible watch* i mean, it IS 3:30am!

Atlantis (2°) 8485 · Personal Protocol · Song · 2023

anyways… listen to this song. it’s good!
open.spotify.com/track/56vLRd...

like… at least i could help someone when no other mods were online as KIDS were spamming the chat with brain rot (and some other INSANELY inappropriate stuff?!?). omg it’s genuinely so pathetic now that i think about it… i felt “purpose” from blocking spammers, which were mostly CHILDREN LOL

i’m just a disabled woman going for a walk when i physically can.
everyone was SO nice/sweet in the comments, some encouraging me to walk more!
but the same dude… he commented “that’s exactly what a suspicious person would say…”
like bro is crazy! god forbid a disabled girly goes for a hot-girl walk

i’m petty so then i made a whole-ass post in the neighborhood fb group about how
1) i take late night walks because i have heat intolerance due to my disabilities
2) i walk “funny” also due to my disabilities
3) i have insomnia bc of my disabilities too
& that i swear i’m not a “suspicious person!”

of “suspicious people walking oddly” around late at night. then he said something like “no one in our neighborhood goes for walks so late.” i commented something like, “that was me! i live on *blank* rd in the neighborhood. i walk *oddly* because i’m disabled.” then he deleted everything LOL

context for those who don’t know: i went for a late night walk. i saw a man standing in his doorway on his phone. he pointed to me, then pointed to his phone. shortly after, a cop passed me twice. in our neighborhood fb group the next day, the same dude complained about the cops not “taking care”

remember when they called the cops on me as a “suspicious person”? i do! 🤣

i’m feeling a little *silly* right now hehehe
maybe i’ll go for a walk around the neighborhood, scaring my elderly neighbors because i walk funny LOL

btw!!! this is from a song, i’ve never drank & drove, + i don’t have a license anymore because the dmv took mine away for being “too disabled” to drive LOL

DRIVING IN MY CAR RIGHT AFTER A BEER! 🎶

and it’s still alexa demie! fire and ice 🔥❄️

kinda cool to have one black/red layout and the other blue

matching layouts again! hehe 🖤

I HATE BEING POOR!!!
i know butterscotch is technically “fine,” (hence why he wasn’t given meds in the past), but he’s older now :( it’s been years… i don’t want his asthma to have worsened & i’m just too poor to actually get him help/meds 💔 he’s okay now, cuddling with me & purring. my poor baby!

i hate that i’m too poor to bring butterscotch to the vet for chest x-rays :( even though he rarely gets asthma attacks, they’re SO SCARY! he always comes to me (/in my room) when they happen 💔 and i just have to sit there saying “you’re okay! it’s okay! it’ll be over soon.” 😭 we always cuddle after

coffee at 5:30pm!!!

*isn’t caused by depression! is NOT caused my depression! they have to make sure my pain is physical, not mental.