sleepy babushka (Momo)

I just wanted to see the sun, but maybe next time I'll be better and just have him drive me around the block and sit in the drive way for a little bit.

It's been a learning curve becoming #disabled / #chronicallyill

I knew I shouldn't have but I threw a fit to leave the house, and hubs let me. It was just a small ride and most of it was spent sitting in a parking lot so hubs could go to Miniso, by the time he came out my body was already starting into a flare.

your parents in 1998: don't trust anyone on the internet. your parents in 2024: fake-cures.com on Facebook says you can cure yourself with beaver meat & green tea enemas mybodyistryingtokillme.com

I don't even feel like Im here at this point, I feel like my brain is a million miles away stuck in the past.

I need my emergency antipsychotic...

My mom just completely tanked my energy for the who knows how long by calling and venting to me about something my sisters dad did (which, valid he f'd up big time like always) but did I need to be her therapist? No, I can barely keep myself awake to do things I like, let alone be here for a vent

Not bedsores but probably my spine that’s been held together by pure hope and nothing else.

I can’t have another surgery on it, and I don’t respond to any type of pain med so I’m just shit out of luck.

#disability #chronicillness

Having an over the phone appointment with my PCP to talk about them and see if I need to come in next week.

a guy riding a horse with armor on and a cowboy hat with a pink bow on it and there are sparkles everywhere lowkey not sure how many more of these rodeos i can take bro it might say "witchywoodalot'

Bedsores 🤬 #disability #chronicillness

Of course being in a PEM episode is also leading to a COPD exacerbation... Just what I needed to not be able to breathe. Nothing to be done except rest, drink water, and hope that I don't get pneumonia. #mecfs #chronicillness

Last night my glasses broke clean in half and if I didn’t have my new pair coming in the mail today I would be freaking out way more. Idk how my timing for ordering a new pair got this close.

I can't find anything to watch because I'm currently in the middle of a PEM episode and every video I try to watch has dramatic music or is too flashy which causes more overstimulation super quickly. #mecfs #chronicillness

My little weirdo 🩵

New tarot deck haul today (+bubs in the background)

1st person - how are you? 2nd person - AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

A gorgeous large california juniper bonsai sits on a platform in front of a garden full of other bonsai trees.

I cannot overemphasize how cool it is that, for my first volunteer shift at the Bonsai Garden in Oakland they let me weed and remove moss from the trunk of this appx 1400 year old California Juniper. Best 2.5 hours of my rather stressful week. #bonsky

Apparently ffxiv had more to download than I thought it did, so that's probably why it crashed on me the first time I tried to open it on my new laptop. I just can't wait to get my pc cleaned so I don't have to fiddle with things.

Ordered three new tarot decks and some books with the money from my family for my birthday/Christmas. I'm excited for them to come tbh, they've all been on my wishlist for a while.

Tarot card of the day:

🪙 King of Pentacles 🪙

Abundance, prosperity, security,safe, kind, reliable

#tarotsky

I have many books on the way to figure out how to care for her, but like… we’ll get there (videos/the internet is useless)

She’s beautiful, she’s graceful, she’s in a new pot 🪴

I also have a pressure sore on each side so I'm basically useless #mecfs #disablitiy

I wore myself out on my birthday, and now that I'm in a PEM episode I decided to double down and do another big stupid useless task. #mecfs #disablitiy

Sequoia bonsai in training planted in a dark earth coloured oval pot with moss covered soil surface. Wire has been applied to the apex area ready to bend and twist the leader and branches into shape.

Sequoia bonsai in training planted in a dark earth coloured oval pot with moss covered soil surface. Wire has been applied to the apex area and the leader and branches are set into there shape and locations to compliment the rest of the tree's design and finishes the last part of the basic structure.

Getting the apex sorted on the Sequoia.
#Bonsai

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Tall juniper bonsai in a dark red black rectangular bonsai pot with moss and rock landscape.

Juniper #Bonsai

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3rd year in bonsai training from retail nursery stock.

Annoying, I’d like to be able to breathe peacefully. #chronicillness #disability

I want to knit

I need to knit

can my body please let me knit 🙂‍↕️

This is a job for the hubby

I think my aunt just texted me asking to send me birthday money, but it could be a spam text message and I'm too paranoid to tell.

I'm getting another bedsore... I was able to heal the first one before it got too bad, but I over compensated and now I have one on the other side. #chronicillness #disablity