Mell 🔒‬

one of the funniest things una said that was a callout for me was “the youngest brother makes a great oldest sister”

sadly i am in such a State lately re: socializing. it’s stupid bc i know a lot of people like me and consider me their friend, but i also feel so on the periphery of everything.

but i’m probably just inventing bullshit in my head bc of Youngest Child trauma.

i soooo direly need an rp group. not even just in an mmo but in discord too. i wanna be able to write collaboratively on my own time, not purely scheduled & in-game.

una had a very rough first day of work but i am so proud of her

una and devilman napping in the chair next to me……. i am so full of love

melanie can have a little bit of completely unserious pettiness. as a treat

i must admit i do have my petty moments. there’s one person who is by all accounts a great person but i have them AND their @ muted bc they’re the literal Only mfer who didn’t remain mutuals with me back during the great move to bluesky.

you are neither of those things. you’re a lovely person to be around and it makes me try to carve out *more* time to spend with you when possible. i’m sure a lot of people around you feel the same!

you really can’t make that horse drink water, eh

ohhhhh fuck the cramps. Ow

waugh..... thank u juno i really appreciate it. i would love to talk and hang out with u more too and my dms are always open!!

response when i do try to organize. i’m so tired of feeling like i’m just the jester.

i appreciate the people in my life who do make an effort to include me bc they do exist. ppl who dm me or want to hang out w me or inv me to servers bc they want to get to know me.

mutual on main put it like this but “friend adjacent” feels so accurate. i’m so tired of being the inviter and never the invitee. i’m so tired of only being part of a group activity if its an open invite to a larger friend server or if i organized it myself. i’m so tired of getting little to no

weh. i have had a general feeling that people aren’t interested in my ocs or creations as much as others so i’m just. grappling with both of these feelings now.

i’m too upset to really word anything proper but ig this is a vent so w/e. i just feel like ppl only care about my butches bc they think they’re sexy. this is far from just a me issue but fuck it wears on me. i know not everyone views my characters like that but it feels like so many do.

when a gyazo screenshot of una’s new butch (that has a coinflip of being mine) gets more attention and replies than her femmes

o yea i did have a good day btw

it is lesbian day can i please start having a good day

you are not stupid, honeybun. i love you.

i am so sorry honey :( i love u

he has no reason, he has no grace, this Brockett is being launched into space

damn i thought u meant the cis guy who dmed and had like? f+ characters on his carrd or something? that fucker is still around like a vermin 😭

if you're talking about who i think you're talking about. yeah i still recognize that fucking guy even after his rebrand. it drives me insane seeing him around still.

why the fuck did i get irregular periods as part of going on estrogen. why am i still cramping.

excuse me. i am the subject matter expert here.

you are forgiven my good friend. she is beautiful transgender wolfgirl with a foxgirl gf. look at them.

fuck this is my priv. cover blown. retreat

she is nothing to any of you ?

i think ur awesome

breaking mutuals and then vagueposting me bc i play mi/nec/raft (which i bought over a decade ago) is so goofy ngl. but i’m glad she got to pat herself on the back about it.