cynthia

im glad this kids parent cares about him so much and told me whats been going on with him but i hope she realizes i dont have the time or ability to fix everything bad in the world

on repeat like 20 times this is INCREDIBLY stressful to read fuck

trying to stay calm bcos nothing in the email is inflammatory at all its clearly full of love and desperation plus and its about a student i love dearly but his mom sent me what seems like an utter rambling mess just like "please help him please i dont know what to do can you do this maybe?"

local state national continental international solar-system galactic universal news all of its bad

got like 3 hours of sleep wah

shoh3i is sooo fine im in pain howd they make a man so pretty

its like on one hand glad youre honest and dont take my money just to give me shit treatment but on the other how are you a psych1atrist and cant handle this these arent even unusual diagnoses by any stretch of the imagination. sorry i can only help people who get nervous on airplanes :/

i genuinely cherish my job like even beyond the need to keep a roof over my head im so lucky to have a job im happy to go to, i wouldnt pick anything else. i love my coworkers i love my students the school is run very effectively its just a good place to be and if i ever get fired i will crash out

im so busy while dealing with moving and my dad being condemned to die horribly from the inside out and i keep fucking things up being late not showing up etc i just need somebody to tell me its ok ... nobodys been mad either but its a complete absence of response so i feel like i dont even matter

basically just at the gym to watch the game im going to break my neck on the only cardio machine where you can even crane your neck to see it

ty we actually did good but i was def one of if not the worst players on the team but i wasnt awful and my coworkers were very nice

praying that i am simply taller than everyone else

wish me luck in this volleyball tournament i signed up for last minute and didnt practice for at all

telepathic infection... romantic

i just want to go to china already wtf this is all a waste of time

ik none of u gaf but the d0dgers game is still going its the 16th inning bruh

i cant be like oh no ofc im hot look at this roster of people who actively want me . cause its just my husband and he would want me even if i turned into a worm which should be even more meaningful and beautiful but i want to be SEXY AND HOT not loved lol :(

for so long my persona/identity was mysterious girl who did lots of drugs and had sex w/o partying like i just dated a lot and a lot of my self worth came from that so being married and sober is soo different, i objectively like it better but it doesnt provide the same self worth "high" lol

none of them have active social media profiles that i can view either like whyyy i need to see pictures of you from yesterday idek why but i do

my feelings about it are so complex and its just so stupid and upsetting.. what a waste of energy

i wish there was a healthy way to process thinking about everyone i ever had sex, put a ribbon on it and store it away in my brain and not need to get it out ever again. instead im always like lets get out that mental photo album that makes me simultaneously h0rny and su1cidal again

my friend put me onto them he always gets lost in the sauce when he puts on music or videos at parties and its usually lowkey annoying (love him tho) but last time he played v1agra boys and i was like wait guys let him cook cause its so good 😭 we listened to the whole thing

but you n33d me fucking cracks me up and is def my #4 lmaoo i can bring a type of vibe to a party that nobody likes and i make everybody sad

man made of meat, water boy, and uno II 🙂‍↕️ what about you??

our new house has well water and its straight up murky as hell idrc bcos the water tests said its safe to drink and it tastes great but it is a little unnerving that our water is literally brown and has sediment in it gkdkdkd

ugh love them their new albums so good

using s1r1 to image search sh0hei 0htani shirtless while driving (nothing came up which i expected)

so stressed i dont even have time to have feelings rn

yeah me neither...