✿angel broken✿

i probably SHOULDNT stay alone but i’d have to go back to my moms and i don’t want to i wish i had a friend that would come here so i wasn’t alone but i don’t have any & partner works out of town

i am alone for the first time in a week and just sobbing what have i done to my life

i have no trust left :(

my toxic trait is cvtting my own stitches out

my mom LOVES to gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss but i have no where else to go i wanna go home

big boned is an insult and no body can change my mind on that. my mom says it’s just a description for being tall???

apparently he ended up suggested Iithium for me. (i do not have bipolar diagnosis) wtf. he added it to the file after. i will never get help. ahahahah my dr disagreed tho so i am getting something else

okay actually i mainta!ned it BUT i was expecting like 10 higher so good 4 me

we1ghing in fully clothed so i’m prepared for what i see the dr if they we1ght me today (idk never been in person). not uhhhh expecting a new Iw????????? my partner been forcing me to e@t????

i didn’t realize instagram made my likes public again, they don’t need to seee me liking cozy cages??? is that not what the repost button is for? if i’d like to share w the team i would bestie??

idk but if you figure it out let me know lol. but mostly i’ve just been justifying it by 1 lil treat adds up if u KEEP doing it like even if they are something cheap. or i just a zer0 soda to feel something

im nauseous and alone for the first time idk what to even do should i just work idk i took to long to reply and my therapist gave my earlier spot away lol i guess i should do the homework she gave me :( but all my skills r bad and uh i learned people cant help me cause im just stubborn

you can just not say sex on a birth certificate now, so mine doesn’t have to say female!!!! i WANT to actually change it but i’m too afraid of u$@ + having an actual x marker on my shit (im canad1an, i dont like the u$@ rn but i dont want to like never be able to go again?)

when they warned me a bpd diagnosis would make ppl treat me worse i actually didn’t realize how bad it was but i also have ALL the requirements? but like so ur being a dick to me cause u know i have trauma? lmao wtf

i am at a point where my dr takes my suggestions cause bro got no new ideas and the dr that WAS supposed to help figure that out uhhhhh told me im pushing a rock around and will never be helped lmao

bpd pals any meds ACTUALLY helping u???? idk what to even asked if i can try ive been thru like almost every SSRI/SNRI, i prev refused antipsychotics but idk if the benefits out weigh the negatives enough now

actually so sad because i love being over dramatic, but now it’s once again “concerning” behaviour :(

okay plan B i’m just gonna get like actual permanent fangs? my teeth r already fucked so what’s the worse that could happen lol that’s what i originally wanted it’s just more expensive and idk who here would do it

omg congratulations 🎉🎉🎉

i hope it works out for you!!! i wanted angel fangs and apparently my lips just aren’t right for them 😩

yeah fair, i am glad he was honest & didn’t just give me a shitty piercing cause if he gave me any option to do it anyways i would have, but i had a terrible week & finally though id get something i wanted for a long time so it just sucks alot, and now i also know i just cant get them ever :\

years of yearning just to be told u don’t have the right anatomy for a piercing 😍

i’ve probably l0st at least 100 since then so yeah makes sense but i mostly wear stretchy so wild to SEE

i took this pic for my mom, these were my favourite shorts that f1t amazing last year and now they are SO biig???
(also i dont think this pic is rllygraphhic at all i just feel weird posting b0dy that’s why i labeled ✨ idk)

kinda wanna ask if they can just guess i’m 99% sure they would be correct lol (it’s z if u know any of my lore but also i delete my z posts A LOT so no issues if u have no idea who that is all good lmaoo)

it’s 6:18am, i found drvgs, i have NOT found my wallet that i desperately need, i don’t think i’m sleeping tonight, i have a piercing booked tomorrow evening ah im overwhelmed. wait do i need my id for that too surely i don’t look under 16 😩

moots only tho. i tried to censor but i don’t want randoms trying to add me

why did p0 kmonnnnn pockettt change it so u can only claim 5 tickets a day wtf also if anyone wants 2 be my friend there hmuuu this time i don’t think u will dox urself (unless ur cards are non english? maybe idk lmao i’m having fun sharing c@rdzz)

they know it’s an irl cause i mentioned they didn’t say bye to me once and it pissed me off, but also i didn’t mention them in my christmas ideas for friends so who knows lol

them just not knowing is actually so much funnier to me, i genuinely think that COULD be a possibility but i think they would have to have it narrowed down to mayb 3 ppl cause i dont talk to anyone else lol??? but i do think they know lol i just dont wanna fuck shit up more rn

my partner asked who the other person who triggers my bpd is cause i said it’s worse when it’s not u & uh 🤪 i thought it was SUPER obvious i didn’t answer but they def know ah idk how they wouldn’t figure it out hm or im not as obvious as i thought and bro has NO ideas genuinely lmaooo