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Okay workout people… how the hell do you do this every day?!? I am constantly sore and tired. I heard this was supposed to make you feel good… when does that start happening?!?

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Whilst tailoring my clothing I’m forced to face the fact that I own far too much tweed and tartan to ever be a Crowley girly… but Aziraphale would feel rather at home in my wardrobe. And I believe Stede would be thrilled by the magnitude of my collections, and my color and season based organization.

those big brown eyes are SCREAMING

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Tomorrow I begin my mission to resize all of my dresses as a person who has only ever sewn doll clothing before. I mean, I’ve helped with cosplay fabrication, so I can do this… right?!?

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As a former fundie… I feel like my fascination with Jesus Christ Superstar was inevitable.

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Did I spend most of yesterday in recovery mode thinking about autism and Vulcan kisses?
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Nooooo… absolutely not

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So operation put on makeup to help me feel more present in my body was a resounding failure. I didn’t even make it to my makeup chair. Took a shower and tried to blow dry my hair… proceeded to have a mental breakdown and am currently in intermittent tears and wanting to vomit.
Good times

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Attempting phase two of feeling present in my body tomorrow… doing my makeup. Wish me luck. That’s hella triggering for me on a good day. But, I got the Lord of the Rings makeup set off of TikTok so, hopefully that helps.
Pretending I’m a hobbit totally counts as being present in my body, right?!?

Louise just hits differently… I usually want to BE Rhys… but Louise 🥰😍🫠

Rhys Darby as Louise from short poppies

Rhys Darby as Louise from short poppies

Rhys Darby as Louise from short poppies

THE LOVE OF MY LIIIIFE

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Any advice for a bath as self care girly who no longer has a bathtub?
A nice long soak has been the best cure for burnout and too many emotions… but now I ONLY HAVE A SHOWER!!!

And to be able to wear button up shirts and waist coats?!?

That would be lovely!! Can you imagine the back pain freedom?!?

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Another day of the pirate boys making me feel better about the body I inhabit… It just clicked for me that since I have Rhysie curls, I can also have Stede Bonnet curls!! And also… I have Rhysie curls, that’s already pretty damn great.

If you see this post a redhead

The duality of occasionally looking at myself and thinking… okay, I may not like this body, but it does have killer titays, and constantly debating a reduction so that I don’t continue searching for a way to comfortably (and “professionally”) support and not squish them.

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Anyone else have Disco Snails stuck in their head on repeat?
Also I miss Snedward and Snede…

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HARD same. I have been keeping myself in the most comfy, least supportive “sports” bras all summer (I work for a school so I have been working from home for the last month) and I have to go back to the office on Monday.

Daily cuteness for today... 😊

I need to take my burn to Paris!!! THEY MUST KNOW THE TE ARO WOLF PACK!!

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A picture from ofmd season 2 episode 5 of stede wearing the cursed suit and swishing in front of the mirror

fruity little man, I miss you so

You ever think about the fact that little Stede could have had a group of little neurodivergent friends if the Badmintons and their cronies weren’t, you know, Badminton-y

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Semi-related to my previous post…
Trying to leave my hair curly and get ready as if I were going “out” is exhausting. I’m putting my mothman hoodie back on and going to lay in the basement where it’s nice and cool

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Hello lovelies! Working with my therapist has helped a great deal with my body dysmorphia… at this point I, at least, feel responsible for my body (which by extension makes it mine), but do any of you have any tips for making a body feel like it belongs to you?

But like… on Stede

Image of Saruman and Grima Wormtongue from the movie adaptation of The Lord of the Rings. The text reads: "BREAKING: Saruman announces that the Gap of Rohan shall henceforth be referred to as the Gap of Isengard."

My heartfelt thanks to a dear friend of mine for this perfect #LOTR meme.

Breaking: Saruman announces that the Gap of Rohan shall henceforth be referred to as the Gap of Isengard.🤣

#LOTRO #LOTROfamily

$5 says this is a line from David Jenkins' Booster Gold script.

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My dad having his hip replaced this week has made today AMAZING. I got to skip the family reunion without anyone guilt tripping or questioning me, and I get to spend the day watching the Lord of the Rings!!