also sorry for the cringe posting ive never had self esteem before
08.08.2025 14:47 — 👍 3 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0@subservientashes.bsky.social
was vent user subservientashes, 2017 - 2024 ◇ nonbinary, transmasc inter-dimensional alien creature they/them, 22 y/o, autism + adhd victim ◇ Kins: • Vanyel Ashkevron (past life, selfhood) • Saeran Choi (past life) • Rantaro Amami
also sorry for the cringe posting ive never had self esteem before
08.08.2025 14:47 — 👍 3 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0WAIT I'm actually getting kind of buff and sexy ,,,,,
sorry for the cis man pose I am ashamed
ah, everything is good in the world 😇✨️ (went home and jerked off)
08.08.2025 12:46 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 1 📌 0hell yeah thank you !!!
08.08.2025 12:45 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0thank you 😭 they are!
08.08.2025 02:48 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0hehe I did scary adult things today and renewed my tags and license ,,, pls be proud
07.08.2025 15:44 — 👍 4 🔁 0 💬 2 📌 0okay I kind of know why but I'm ignoring it
07.08.2025 11:38 — 👍 2 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0hell yeah!!!
07.08.2025 11:37 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0ugh , anxiety bad today , no clue why
07.08.2025 09:41 — 👍 3 🔁 0 💬 1 📌 0some recent Vanyel drawings I did that I liked :) not canon Vanyel, more like a headcanon I use for more modern settings
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#vanyelashkevron #lastheraldmage
some guy today asked why my voice was so deep and said I sounded like darth vader 😭😭 i dont know whether to be embarassed or flattered lmao
05.08.2025 12:20 — 👍 3 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0holy shit you guys love autism war
05.08.2025 12:19 — 👍 5 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0I LOVE MANTISES ❤️💞❤️💞❤️💞❤️💞❤️💞❤️💞💞❤️💞❤️❤️💞❤️💞
04.08.2025 11:35 — 👍 1 🔁 1 💬 0 📌 0sobbing at this. I love it so much thank you for making art of these two hhfbfhdhhddb
02.08.2025 06:51 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0forgot to reply 😭😭
but yeah!! I'm nb too! the goal is to look like an androgynous cis guy,, i want to be seen as neither gender but that's not going to happen so im just doing what I want 😎 making myself happy!
I do!! I've been playing around with my physical presentation, leaning more masc lately so have asked myself if I'm actually a transguy.
definitely not though. I'm still very much ... no gender. it's an odd thing to explain to someone who hasn't felt it
waiting for the day this happens to me because I KNOW it's coming 😔
02.08.2025 06:45 — 👍 2 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0packing peanut goes so hard
02.08.2025 06:44 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0the fishies are so cute 😭
02.08.2025 06:43 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0this is so true I can't even explain it,, that's exactly how it feels lmao
02.08.2025 06:41 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 1 📌 0YES
02.08.2025 06:40 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0my god your art style is gorgeous
02.08.2025 06:35 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0it’s August which means it’s pretty much September which means it’s pretty much October
01.08.2025 15:06 — 👍 89 🔁 35 💬 6 📌 3qrow branwen in a glue trap
get him out of there 😢
01.08.2025 12:46 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0red car, someone used their finger to write in the condensation on the door. the words say 'IM GAY' right under the passenger window
me too buddy, me too
01.08.2025 12:26 — 👍 2 🔁 0 💬 1 📌 0leave me alone bot
01.08.2025 09:35 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0-black river orchard by chuck wendig
absolutely loving this book so far, 334 pages in, about halfway through. love the characters, love how they intertwine into the story, loving the build up, love the prose, etc etc etc
"The carousel kept spinning. The haze of smoke, the brandied breath, the opiate scent of appleskin in his nose.
But now it felt different. He was no longer on the outside of the carousel, riding and spinning ’round and ’round.
No.
He was the axis around which it spun."
trying to 😭 exercising regularly is hard bleh.
and thank you 😭 i really didn't think it would make me this much happier but,, oh my