Gigi

I’m terrified these two 2000kcal days are going to ruin all my progress

Yesterday was a blowout ignore it and move on today we’ll be okay just An alcoholic bingne of an omad

Anyways yall I got a day of food packed (my coffee, half a torta and my homemade mac’n’cheese)

November 12, 2025

Daily total: 1,631kcal, I don’t wanna even TALK about it but basically I’m a greedy bitch

Thank you I really think I needed to hear that, I’ve been struggling trying to figure out words that don’t sound corny and lovesick but honestly? 5 years in and I’m still corny and lovesick and it’s only gotten worse so what can I say

How do you know if your vows are good? I’m trying to write them but I feel corny

Anyways couldn’t finish the torta but wanted cookies and it’s barely any more? So cool

Dinner:
492kcal on half a chicken torta
261kcal on some fries
153kcal on a beer
107kcal blazing apple

Daily cals are sitting at about 1228kcal

November 11

Breakfast:
12kcal coffee
49kcal sugar
69kcal coconut milk

Lunch:
55kcal black seedless grapes
20kcal for about 2/3 of a plum

Dinner:
440kcal Sesame chicken
138kcal on fried rice
222kcal for an egg roll

Snack:
18kcal black grapes

Daily totallllllllllll issssssssssss 974kcal woot woot

I should mention I texted it while scream crying I ain’t out here screaming at him I’m home alone for a night for the first time in months

Just told my fiancé who’s on a work trip I wanted to light all his shit on fire while scream crying this man is asleep I really hope he accepts the “nvm ily” he’s about to get

Just had a crash out of epic proportions, huge, a crash out this big have never been done before, I am the crash-outiest of the crash-outs of crash-outdom

I just want my scrub jacket back but no they have to embroider it for me IM COLD

November 10th

Breakfast:
12kcal coffee
49kcal sugar
69kcal coconut milk

Lunch:
26kcal on a honey stick

I was getting shaky but I honestly think it was cause I was cold anyways no omad womp womp

Anyways today we have coffee with a planned omad of the other half of my Chinese takeout from last night. Fingers crossed yall

Lunch:
317kcal perogies
10kcal diet lemonade

Dinner:
293kcal Sesame chicken
138kcal fried rice
222kcal for the egg roll

Deserts:
80kcal Mott fruit snack

Daily total: a whopping 1,293kcal. Honestly not horrible but ew almost hit the limit

November 9th

Breakfast:
5kcal coffee
16kcal sugar
69kcal coconut milk
10kcal plum

Snack:
90kcal Reese break
43kcal dove dark chocolate

November 8th

I had half a torta, half a California crunch roll platter, 6 perogies and a fuckton of alcohol (wine and vodka) for about 2000kcal I’m refusing to count it because normal intake scares me

Deadass 380kcal on perogies vs 683kcal on alcohol

I nearly doubled my dinner intake in alcohol calories oh my god this is why I don’t drink with the boys

I should clarify when I say “bangers” I mean I was sad and lonely and craved love and lived a life accordingly

I’ve been a victim of COCSA multiple times from my older brother who was 11-13 during the duration where as I was always 5 years younger. I loathe him in a deep part of me but another part can’t bare to let one of the few people who care about me go.

Dinner:
535kcal on the most DIVINE pork torta I have ever consumed
261kcal on fries
5kcal on Diet Coke

Today’s grand total? 971kcal

I started doing opioids in 8th grade, 3 months before ever smoking weed.

November 7th

Breakfast:
12kcal black coffee
49kcal sugar
64kcal honey
Probs like 45kcal for A bite of coffee cake

Lunch: nada 👎

My mom and birth dad were 6 years apart in age and never married, he was actually married to someone else, got a divorce and married who he was cheating on my mom with. Because of him I have 6 siblings, possibly 7 and I’m in the dead center. My mom only has me.

I could cook that independently and unsupervised, I might add.

Growing up I didn’t have friends because I was a mixed Romani kid who didn’t know heritage and was best friends with my nana who was born in 1930 so I read the paper, watched baseball and horror movies and could cook a French toast breakfast by 5 years old

I was homeless for a smidge because I got in a fight with my stepdad at 16 and took off in my car when he told me to get out and not come back. Spent the summer hopping parks in my grandpas car he gave me and sleeping out of it. My mom finally talked sense into both of us before the school year came