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ngl this a much bigger gap in cultural clash because he's not jewish... like I've dated secular/datlishim before but they've been Jewish and that makes it so even tho they're not as interested/ invested as me, they're still in it, if that makes senses?

how do you date secular people? no, this a real question because what do you mean this convo about the letter vs spirit of the law re: siyum on the 9 days isn't interesting to you

just told my bf I have PTSD over text, by way of saying the aliyah benefits social worker is gonna get me CBT therapy for it (which may or not explain my unexplained crying, twice, in front of him) ama

twice now I've watching a show with my bf and a male character says that he's a feminist because he believes in the equality of men and women, and I've shouted back at the tv "no, it's about the liberation from patriarchy"

him "these datim that say 'Jews are Indigenous to Judea [so annex and occupy the West Bank] need to put their money where there mouth, is since all Jews are only descent from the Tribe of Judah, they should only live in Judea, Haifa was Tribe of Asher's land, soo what are they doing here than, huh?"

him "these datim that say 'Jews are Indigenous to Judea [so annex and occupy the West Bank] need to put their money where there mouth, is since all Jews are only descent from the Tribe of Judah, they should only live in Judea, Haifa was Tribe of Asher's land, soo what are they doing here than, huh?"

finally moved the last of my stuff to my own studio apartment in dar and my friend drove me and my few boxes of clothes I had left

and we were doing the classic American lefty olim chat, him datlash and me, temporarily otd, and we were discussing the borders of Eretz Yisrael vs Medinat Yisrael

there’s like a solid dozen things Israel does that warrants vociferous condemnation but “they have ‘no food culture’ [points to cuisine that’s variations on foods of the various Jewish diasporas that make up their population]” is, IMHO, pretty dumb

I think that's the reform synagogue

and sent my bank statements and letter for the unemployment back dated from February, writing a resume and cover letter to be an English teacher here in Haifa, filed my Canadian taxes all in the last 4 hours, and I sent my resume to work at masorti shul in Haifa last week

I say this while having moved last week to my first studio apartment with my cat to the neighbourhood I've been wanting to live in since I moved to Haifa in October, my first time living alone and first renting my own a legal apartment in Israel after 3 years here

I'm rewatching the 2010s CBC show,  Being Erica, where an early 30s Jewish Canadian woman time-travels through therapy to confront her past while struggling with not being where she wants to be in life, both personally and professionally and like "I wonder whyyyy I relate sooo much"

okay this is my pinned post on twitter and is important context soooo ~

something I'm trying to hold on to these days "life is long", I'm sad today, I'll probably be sad tomorrow, my life doesn't look like I want it to, I'm not living in congruency of my hashkafa, but life is long, one day soon, slowly but surely I will build a life for myself I want

do want to enter back into the world, I really appreciated it when I was living in Jerusalem this summer/fall, when I entered the shabbat world even if I'd go on my phone as soon as I got home from shabbat dinner or services, I love the world of Torah

I haven't been shomer shabbat since 7.10, I gave myself grace to be angry at the world and G0d aka off the derech for the timing being, I know for me personally, being my definition of shomer shabbat and kashrut ect is important to me, for my values, quality of life etc but I just can't atm