Just call me Ash

After months of bad mental health, it felt good to have a story idea pop into my head again yesterday. In a way, it was about my bad mental health, but hey... that's how you get #horror

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#PennedPossibilities 758 Is there any sort of “lie” at the core of your MC’s worldview or how they see things?

The lie that he never had a choice, that everything was being done to him and he had no agency.

Only the Living Feel Remorse: A Ghost Story

the more senior an engineer you are, the more likely you are to take up woodworking

Wacht, wait, what?

#WritersCoffeeClub Day 12
How does the morality of the characters you write differ from your own?

Often radically 😅😅

The main character of my novella is an utter asshole, but he is that way because he let his resentment overcome him.

We have some overlap, but I wasn't quite so unlucky in life.

Just saw someone repost this so I thought I'd resurface it for everyone. It's still relevant.

The Department of Toxic Masculinity When I first started working, smoking in offices had already been banned. Officially, you couldn’t smoke anywhere in the workplace, yet the director of my first job still regularly walked through the ...

New blog post: on the smoky room at the edge of my brain, where I keep all my old toxic masculinity:

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Ze zijn een wezen van gevoel en niets meer. Ze zijn behoefte en honger. Ze draaien zich om, vangen zijn blik en de bravoure verbleekt.

Ze zijn een wezen van honger, en die honger zal gestild worden.

(4/4)

De ander wacht rustig, met een blik als een tevreden spinnende kat.

"Je was niets. Niemand. Onbelangrijk. Betekenisloos. Nutteloos. Nu heb je nut, een doel. Nu ben je van mij."

De woorden hebben geen betekenis meer voor hen. Er zijn geen woorden meer in hun wereld. Geen gedachten, geen angsten.

De ander duwt ze naar de spiegel: ‘Kijk wat ik van je heb gemaakt.’
Het glas is koud tegen hun voorhoofd. De spiegel beslaat van hun adem, maar niet snel genoeg om te verbergen wat ze geworden zijn.

Een afgewende blik. Huivering. Walging.

Verlangen.

Honger.

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I don't often write Dutch, but this prompt inspired me:

(1/3)

I'm just dumbfounded. The world needs to know just how bad this is.

Support trans authors while you still can

Queer/trans authors affected by itch.io, if your NSFW stories have paperback options available, now's a good time to advertise them.

#ScribesAndMakers Jul 24: Do you create on the go?

It's almost embarrassing to admit how much of my fiction gets typed on my phone 😅

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A horror podcast (The Antiquarium of Sinister Happenings) accepted a short story of mine 🥰🥰🥰
Can't wait to hear them tell this story 🥰🥰🥰

~if you're not familiar with this podcast, highly recommend checking them out for some gruesome horror stories 📚💙🩸📚😱
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I've just sent out a whole bunch of submission responses so please look to your spam folders, folks. (Sorry if it's a 'no' this time ❤️)

Text on TV reading "this story is dedicated to all those cyberpunks who fight against injustice and corruption every day of their lives."

Rambo IV: CyberVietnam

Hello! A friend of mine forgot an embroidery piece somewhere on the train. She worked on it for years and years, so could you repost and like this in case anyone found it? ❤️

Gevonden op FB. Ik moest erom lachen ... www.facebook.com/photo/?fbid=...

Thank you!

I left social media for a while, thinking it would help with my mental health... turns out, it just made me miss you lot 😅

En medeplichtigheid is straks ook strafbaar: honderden kerken, scholen, artsen; duizenden mensen lopen straks risico te worden vervolgd. Beangstigend.

Leuk! Ik ga eens kijken of ik ook kan komen. 😊

Ik ben aangekondigd als gast op HSFCon, het eerste weekend van november in Maastricht. Ik zal er een lezing geven over Solarpunk, gevolgd door discussie. Bovendien heb ik mijn meest recente boeken mee. Zie ik je daar? www.hsfcon.nl/2025/07/01/n...

Why are Dutch kids the world’s happiest? A teenager weighs in | CNN Freedom for kids to move through the world on their own may be the key to the Netherlands’ top spot in childhood happiness.

"Dutch kids get bicycles at an early age and that gives them the ability to move around their towns and cities by themselves."

Bikes ➡️ freedom & independence ➡️ happy kids ✅

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De noodzaak voor airco is een direct gevolg van klimaatverandering.

Daarnaast zou er ook niks aan de hand zijn als ons stroomnet niet jaren verwaarloosd was waardoor we nu niet voldoende capaciteit in zonnepanelen kunnen aansluiten.

Hugs 🫂

Wishing you strength and hopefully some peace.