not jenn takahashi

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six more hours and the spell is broken ✨

🥺🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

i remember last year, right before The Incident, i was dreading my birthday so much bc i feel like i hadn't truly processed ebo's death & it felt like my bday meant i'd have to finally face it

then The Incident happened so i never faced it

🙏🏼 bad things don't come in 3s 🙏🏼

🙏🏼 bad things don't come in 3s 🙏🏼

🙏🏼 bad things don't come in 3s 🙏🏼

gonna go meditate for a bit brb

and the birthday before THAT, a friend passed away unexpectedly

i answered a call while boarding a plane bc i thought he was wishing me happy birthday, like he did every year. sobbed the entire flight home

first time i lost a good friend and i think about him all the time. love you forever ebo ❤️

QUEEN

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

the fact that everything happened so close to my birthday sucks bc it really hits home that i lost a full year of my life i'll never get back 🥲

resuming EMDR sessions tomorrow, hoping it starts to kick in soon!

the good news is i think that is the LAST of The Notable Dates

i cried so bad when she took the food 😭😭😭

my birthday is on sun and i'm dreading it so bad. that was the day we found out i still had sepsis. one of my worst days in the hospital - i was so excited about getting a special breakfast for my bday and the nurse said i need emergency surgery and literally took the fork out of my mouth lmaoooo

last night, my mom and i ran into each other in the kitchen at 3am and realized we were both so stressed that we made a pizza right then and there 😭

this makes me really happy to read! i still have my moments but think i am feeling more optimistic in general since The Dates have passed 🥹💓

jk i'm having a panic attack and just asked to reschedule 😭

so tempted to cancel EMDR in a couple hours but i'm gonna try to tough it out!!!

same

thanks for asking, ken! i haven't started going to the gym yet BUT i have been trying to be slightly more active

(other doctor told me i should take it easy for a couple more weeks, just in case)

high-key dreading 4pm PT bc that's around the time It Happened

okay sorry in advance - i just need to skeet through it today

new goal is to move back to my apartment sometime late next week but also trying to not rush myself 😵‍💫

i feel bad for my parents bc it's been a week since i let them open the blinds lol

🙏🏼 just need to get through today 🙏🏼

ordered froyo for lunch

today is the Sunday after Thanksgiving

john cusack unfollowed me here & i'm just telling myself it's bc he couldn't handle me talking about The Incident anymore & it made him sad :(

turns out this time period is more triggering to me than the actual anniversary (11/26) was. whenever i tell someone about The Incident, i always say it happened "the Sunday after Thanksgiving" so the vibes here are a little 😵‍💫

first time speaking to a reporter for a story since The Incident!!!

I love you Amy. so thankful for you

THAT SAID, happy thanksgiving to all of you my wonderful friends. thank you for being the best support system. thank you for every like, every message, every reply, every gif - i love you all so much. truly believe this community is a huge reason why i'm alive today ❤️