Lauren

Making my way through Ellen Hopkin's books!

I need to find a new job.

I just feel so. Idk.

I'm so excited. I was talking to Jay about it at a book festival last weekend in NJ!! Also- you should tour in NJ!!! lol

Scenes of the breakfast spot. A black iced coffee. Bagel with pork roll, egg and cheese. Kindle with the cover of Fallout by Ellen Hopkins showing.

Saturday breakfast vibes.

Finished Glass last night.

Onto Fallout today.

@ellenhopkins.bsky.social

Thanks! I just finished Crank and forgot how much I loved it.

Doing a re-read of @ellenhopkins.bsky.social books and made myself a little cheat sheet hehe. I feel like I'm missing something but I don't think I am

Meh

So. Tired.

I’m just fucking done and about to say nevermind to this thing next week and just isolate again.

Like consistently sending this stuff when we didn’t know if our moms friend might die ??? My best friends mom who has basically become a second mom???? And you know this and can’t stop and think do I need to send the gloom
And doom to this specific chat?????

I can’t even send a text to talk things through because fuck. I set a goddamn boundary for me. And I’m the bad person.

This is why I struggle. I’m done. I’m tired. I can’t handle shit.

Finally- for the first time in a long time- I’m not su*cidal. And then I set a boundary to keep it that way. And now I’m the bad person.

Nooooo ugh that sucks.

I’ve been at my job 5 years. This is my fifth motorsports show (because COVID happened) and in those five years I’ve always had to make a name badge when I got there because I wasn’t on the staff this. This year I am. It’s a miracle

Why do I bother

*sigh*

I’m going to meet my friends baby and have dinner with them. But I don’t wanna leave her

White cat with tan/gray calico spots on owners lap.

I’m so happy.

I need a new job. Or something. I am about to have another fucking panic attack.

The only reason we were told no before was because they decided to not separate him from his brother which I get. But they told us originally they would.

Please let this adoption work out this weekend. My heart can’t take another “no”

I don’t know why I try.

My depression is rearing its ugly hesd today….

My friends, y’all.

Meh

I quit. Lol

Holly Jolly in my house this year

I just want to go home and cry. The amount of pregnancy announcements today… my heart hurts.