Aiure

I know the reviews for Wayward haven't been the greatest, and I'm no critic, but I thought Mae Martin's work was perfectly executed. It's been several days since I finished it and I'm still thinking about it.

Time for another exciting round of "was that gunfire or fireworks" yaaay 😑

It's helped me come to terms with our choice to make a quick, silent exit that forced us to abandon many of our belongings.

I wish more people understood the scope of it. We did what we had to do to keep our mental health intact.

Over the last few months I compiled a list on my phone notepad of reasons my SO and I left our last home. It's nearly 7 pages long.

In under 7mo our lives were upended, privacy and dignity trod upon, our family's safety disregarded, under the guise of a friend's helping hand.

Travel mug printed with Haida art featuring a raven and moon in traditional Haida style.

Work hydration

Raven Moon
Allan Weir, Haida
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Played Powerwash Sim 2 demo and I'm sad I had to set all the graphics to low/none.

I just wanna wash stuff so I don't need it to be super high def to be enjoyable, but my computer's only 2.5yrs old - I mean, really? I don't get paid enough to upgrade my shit every year 😫

Like any chronic illness, severity varies. I have good days where I can do quite a bit with a reasonably clear head and an ok amount of energy. But on bad days, everything takes great effort and it's hard to think, move, and talk.

16mo post-covid and I still have:

-spots from hives on my forearms
-breathlessness after basic activities like crouching or walking from room to room
-muscle fatigue after any movement
-debilitating fatigue
-PEM that takes weeks to recover from
-cognitive issues

The last 2 days I've been hit with some awful brain fog. I give myself a lot of leeway with my work anyway but this took my productivity down to nearly nil. Not sure if it's because of the weather or perimenopause, but it's been pretty rough 😮‍💨 Horrible muscle fatigue too.

Artificial monstera

I've always wanted a monstera, so it's the latest addition to my artificial plant haven. It's cheap enough that I'll probably get more 🌿

Canada doing what Canada does best, appearing to care about Indigenous lives while simultaneously contributing to their genocide.

Can't even ignore his dick long enough to do a single surgery. I wouldn't want to have a surgeon/doctor known for fucking *anyone* while I'm totally unconscious and under his care. 🤮

Jon Stewart to host 'The Daily Show' in rare mid-week appearance a day after Kimmel suspension - Entertainment News Jon Stewart plans to host Thursday's episode of “The Daily Show,” one day after ABC suspended Jimmy Kimmel’s late-night show indefinitely following comments he made about the assassination of conserva...

"Stewart's featured guest will be Maria Ressa, the journalist and author of 'How to Stand Up to a Dictator.' Ressa also shared the 2021 Nobel Peace Prize for her fight for freedom of expression in her home country of the Philippines."

Perfection.
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✨️ F A S C I S M ✨️

Walked 2 blocks to the store and was sweating buckets by the time I got there. The temp dysregulation always hits hardest when I step inside, and it's exacerbated by wearing a mask. I'm sure I make people wildly uncomfortable as a result, which is both hilarious and embarrassing.

I'm still very much a lobster but at least now I don't look quite so much like I was stung by a million bees.

None of the active ingredients are known for this, so I just chalk it up to my family's tendency for weird adverse reactions to literally fucking anything.

Discovered I'm allergic to something in my new facial moisturizer this morning after seeing myself in the mirror and realizing I looked and felt like I walked face-first into the sun itself. The hives are fucking everywhere.

"Hey I have a tiny bit of energy, I'm gonna do a Thing!"

*does the Thing*

*fucks it up*

*creates 3x as much work for myself because now I gotta fix the fuck up AND finish the Thing*

*does too much*

*regret, pain, fatigue*

Every fucking time.

Why am I like this 😭

Photo looking down a sidewalk and street, featuring tees starting to shed their yellow leaves.

The only thing I miss about my old neighbourhood is the massive trees lining the street.

They're always so pretty when the leaves turn 🍂

Photo from 2018

🎶 Hey Mister Tangerine Man, play your death for me 🎶

My apartment's property is strictly no smoke/vape so I've switched to edibles. I manage to remember to take the thc pill every night, but fuck if I can remember the cbd lozenges right beside me on my desk, where I spend 90% of my time 🥴

A console table in the entryway of my apartment, with a few things on the top shelf, including a liy LED tree. Above the table is a framed art print with artificial vine plants on either side of it.

Is it weird that I get excited about new furniture and decor?

I spend most of my time here, so I should feel good about my home 😊

I've been working as much as possible since the move and I just can't manage. My work is suffering - I am suffering. I really need that one extra day off a week.

I've at least been keeping up on daily chores, but I haven't had the energy for anything else, and I hate it.

A tortie and a torbie cat sitting on a small table.

Post-work balcony chill time

Photo of an orange sunset with highlights of red and pink

Last night's skyfire

Considering an absurd number of people are currently actively denying blatantly obvious, ongoing genocides, probably not.

While I'm already in productivity mode for work I've started to incorporate cleaning into the routine.

Audit a batch of calls, get up, stretch, do a lap around the house, and clean a thing.

Dust a shelf, clean the litterbox, sweep a room. Anything to keep me engaged.

Though one of the buildings nearby uses one of those super high pitched beep devices at night to annoy the fuck out of unhoused people in the vicinity. I don't mind it, surprisingly, but I hate it on principle.

It's so nice to chill on the balcony and watch the sunset every night. After years of feeling confined at the old place I'm really enjoying the freedom.

A bit more privacy would be nice, but that's part of the reason I want to eventually stock this place full of fake plants 🪴

Worked 45min this morning before giving up and taking a rest day. 11:30pm comes round and I *finally* feel well enough to work, but the VPN is down for the night so I can't do anything anyway. Why's it gotta be this way 😫