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Im so inactive on here its crazy how is everyone

Im been maintaining 130-135 for months now and people will say that im small and etc but its so hard to believe I gen feel like I was most confident at 115 it was so satisfying

I still feel bad and miss him but also he lowkey killed the vibe

So I unadded him everywhere bc it just seemed like he actually had sm built up anger and I lowkey did too bc he always would hold in all his emotions til the last second and would get mad that people didnt know he was upset

Like not an excuse but the last year I was switching meds every month and I had a lot of personality changes and missing memories and I explained that and truly I was sorry and wanted to do what I could but he was so dismissive and clearly just wanted to be mad at me ToT

About stuff-- plus he just seemed to have a searing resentment for me and when he called me to talk about it he said I needed to say more than sorry and I was like okay what do you need and he was like idk

Tbf I dont remember all the stuff I told her bc I just tell ppl about personal things bc it doesnt bother me and I didnt know he didnt want me to talk about it -- and when I was dating this girl I also didnt tell him bc he kept holding secret grudges and hiding things so I didnt feel safe talking

Lowke ever have friend drama thats too deep to even unpack- like I stopped being friends with this guy bc he ghosted me for 6 months bc my ex told him the personal things I told her about my sex life (I had slept woth this man before)

Tyyyy-- I was trying to do a lil chibi style hehe

Yoooo what is THAT

Ate a pint and a half of ice cream the past 2 days ToT

Trying not the think about all the times men manipulated me into filming us having s3x and those vid3os still exist and are probably online ToT

Dan and phile calender has been ordered im waiting by the door til it arrives

Autisming out

I also hate ketchup ToT but I could add it to salad dressing or something thats a good idea

Gummies might work -- ive tried mixing it and I legit cant handle the smell ToT

Youre the sweetest ever🥺🥰🥰🥰

Bless i eill try all this but I hate apple cider vinegar I cannot handle it-- it try to drink 2/3 water bottles a day

Can anyone give me some more tips on losing weight that isn't fasting bc I cant stay functional if I fast more than a day anymore-- im trying low cal high protien and fiber-- but I havent been consistent
Im gonna try and lower sugar intake any other tips for yall?

I hope everyone's having a lovely evening-- i cannot get myself to clean for shit tbh my room is so messy

Ty 🥺🥺🥺I def dont feel tiny ur so kind

I miss ho2 it felt to be on edtwt last year-- I felt like I had goals and a schedule and I stuck to it once I recovered I felt so out of control and still do idk how to fix it

Cw is 134-- Thanksgiving is always hard bc if I dont eat people get worried-- I am alos so tired and in pain so much no a days its harder to fast for long periods of time and function-- here's me on Thanksgiving I feel like i looked nice but I hate how big I look still

9k steps today
Meals
Protein bar 160
Bread 100
Popcorn 50
1/2 apple 50
Total 360
Cals burned 400

Daily goals
Check weight once a day min
Min 8k steps a day
15 Min extra workout
>800 cals
18:6 int. fasting
Weekly goals
-2 lbs per week
2×24hr fast
Goal of -10 lbs in the first month

Im baaaack-- update over my ex and have a new gf nowww hehe-- cw is 139-- new meds have made me gain weight which sucks sm-- me and my gf are going to the gym 1x a week starting next week-- new goals coming soon

PHAN IS REAL

Would anyone wanna send me money jist bc im so fun and cute

Hey guys im back i wish I could be more consistent on here but im put of 130s jail finally-- does anyone have razor recommendations also i need new ones

I mean when will I ever get a break-- talking about sm trauma in therapy has made life outside sm harder I feel like idk how to be normal I cant mske friends I feel like a loser