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im gonna log out

in a weird mental period. i have the urge to over explain my situation all the time bc i am compulsive like that. i just need time by myself i dont wanna engage online as much and im also just feeling like a fish out of water cuz idk. Im focused on other things suddenly

the priority is autism assessment honestly, gang gang

Highkey? not focusing on my ed at all, focusing instead on my internalized ableism and how in denial ive been abt the possibility of Actually being autistic even tho deep at my core i just know thats what it is . For years

yesterday was a flop but im at a rlly good number rn, using my disgust for myself to paddle thru

the self introspection while high was crazy 2nite

Rverytime i thinn about julian fromme i crunble to my knees

damn im gonna watch brooklyn 99

im literally pro self diagnosis but when it applies to myself i always second guess. Every time i try and book apts for assessments it's always full . but now i realize im doing the 'justifying' part of my rumination spiral its just reassurance and then obsession OCD. caught it mid post Im high

It takes a lot for me to say it out loud even if its a post not a lot of ppl will even see bc i always invalidate myself and ruminate over 'what if im faking' but idk it just resonates so hard and would validate sm of my life experiences

I think im autistic

the oil hit mid call with my sisters omfg. im like ssseeeeeyaaaaa guysssssssss

march 1

1200-1300 range (counted loosely) maintenance. focused on simply not binging rn

im high as fuck rn

claiming this energy for march

Ended up just picking up dorian gray and if we were villains !!

Manifesting that March will be a better month for us all

i will now choose 1 random moot to spam with likes

the idea of having a weight with only 2 digits makes me feel euphoric. i need that

feb 16 - feb 28

i stopped counting bc i got super depressed 😔 lawl

605 cals left for my intake 2day

house of leaves is also on my list

Yayyy i got weed . gotta be extra careful not to binge i got enough sxperience im sure ill be fine. got abt an hour before work im gonna go to the book store, im curious abt if we were villains!! i also wanna get picture of dorian gray and mb dead poets society

IM RELIVING 2018 DONT TEXT

everytime i wake up to a new day it is not the beautiful thing it should be i resent being alive

YESSSSSSSS BASED do u have any actual book recs for that

think its bc of my farty diet farty exercise routine and 22 years of anxiety