Crash Burning Amber

new[ly posted] poem: a minor necromancy crashmargulies.dreamwidth.org/2632.html

love to check my timelines after weeks away and remember why I left social media

some masking—in grocery stores, pharmacies, transit, *medical settings*—is better than none; every chain of transmission broken matters.

don’t know where to start?
•BonaFideMasks
•WellBeforeHQ
•Laiahnzhi
•Dräger
•BeHealthy
•BNX
•3M
•CambridgeMaskCo
+buy directly from distributors for best quality

alive but barely. bank acct is closed bc I didn't have money in it for too long. SNAP hasn't been renewed for March onward. missed med appts bc I am off a crucial med that makes me able to do more things. one of the lovely dogs in my house is mystery-injured and may be dying.

worth noting how many physicians not only refuse to wear an N95 to protect their patients from preventable illness, but become angry & abusive when asked for this basic infection control

The Feminist Law Professor Who Wants to Stop Arresting People for Domestic Violence For years, Leigh Goodmark was convinced that the way to keep women safe was through arrests and prosecutions. Now she’s pushing for the opposite.

It took me 28 years to go from carceral feminist to abolitionist. @saaarah.bsky.social tells that story here.

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blue background with white text. In center of the image, there is the Mask bloc logo with QR code. text reads , “request form link” followed by the link https://cryptpad.fr/form/#/2/form/view/ewgl6c1Y9sO-I-ZXO37wCNYsNr7HZY-IEsaGq1R9v0/embed/15m

Our new request form is live! Find it at linktr.ee/maskblocmsp ! And don’t worry, if you have a pending request in our old form, that will still be fulfilled!

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🍉 Please help us continue to keep the thousands of eSIMs we bought active so Gazans can connect with the outside world

For more: chuffed.org/project/crip...

I want to write articles/essays but I'm not sure anyone will read them. Failing out of humanities academia may have been one of the worst choices I ever made.

And y’all taking your masks off are complicit— You are letting them, you are hand in hand in that push toward forgetting by pretending there is no ongoing risk to yourselves or others. You, your loved ones, get repeatedly infected, brush off ongoing symptoms in pursuit of a 2019 normal long gone.

Reject the Linguistic Coup: Speak Up for Trans People The Trump administration is trying to shape public perception on transness by manipulating language and symbols—don’t let it.

This week's list of must-reads includes this piece from my friend Willow Schenwar, a trans woman who writes, "Fascists will go as far as they can to try to shape public perception and create oppressive realities by manipulating language and symbols—don’t let them."

FYI - no social media on my phone anymore, just direct messaging apps. Don't assume I see anything; if it's relevant or important please send a DM on the most direct platform you've got. Signal / SMS preferred.

Why Masks-Required Concerts Still Sell Out in the Bay Area | KQED COVID-conscious musicians and fans have created a tight-knit, DIY scene that’s all about accessibility.

My latest @kqedarts.bsky.social story about sold-out masks-required shows sums up many of my thoughts on the ongoing pandemic's fifth anniversary. Many of us are living in the actual new normal. It's never too late to start protecting your loved ones & self again! www.kqed.org/arts/1397262...

Digital file preservation friends: I have a new way of sharing archived items with you. If you're interested in access to my digital libraries (lit, music mostly; lots of local #Minneapolis punk) DM me your signal info or to get mine!

I hope in another universe there is the chance to be happy.

No, but "deserve" vs circumstances is not the same. People deserve a lot of things. Doesn't mean they'll get them. No one to do the supporting when everyone who surrounds you is equally in need.

but I don't understand why & I am taking away resources that should be keeping other, useful people alive

I don't have skills or resources to fight back. My cognition and health are suffering. Keeping myself alive alone is already impossible.

How am I supposed to help anyone?

am I a failure because the fascists will win against me, specifically?

👏 "Prevention is not someone else's job" 👏

seeing a lot of "all we need is hope" posts but y'all, we need more than hope. We need people who haven't been acting to act, and I don't have faith in that happening.

i can't keep doing this

my social media atp is all desperate crowd funding. with over $200 of debt just in my checking account, I get ~5 views per post, so there's nothing I can do. Every time I open my phone/computer I'm more convinced the answer is to k m s so I stop taking resources from others.

Glad that you've always been able to afford & access groceries and medical supplies at somewhere other than Walmart or Amazon - definitely not true for some of us.

Every day I ask myself if I've done enough to die yet

Not gonna live through this. Constantly wondering if it will be easier for the people I love it I plan that out instead of letting it surprise us.

Behind every chronically ill person who works is the voice in their head that's telling them they should push through chronic illness symptoms at their own peril.

So grateful my SNAP finally came in at least partially. About to put in an order for more bread making supplies, including a sourdough starter so I won't need yeast long-term

Learned EBT also lets me buy seeds, so some of my survival garden will be funded, too.

Yeah I'm super stoked about this lil guy 🥰💙 thank you so much for building it with me

Quit therapy today because I was like, "Hey, it feels pointless and like a waste of my limited energy to do self-improvement when everyone wants me dead."

And she was like, "yeah, fair."