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It actually when well! He’s gonna do some tests and me mentioned eventually maybe injections to help?? So he’s even thinking of treatment. So I’m okay.

Yea like how can someone go though life without mental problems? I think I really gives us a lot of life experience. We see a darker side of the world and know dangers better than someone who doesn’t. Anyway I’ll always be here if yall wanna dm or smth im just bad at replying sometimes I sleep alot

Rues box got turned into a winter box instead of a cool shady box. There’s a warm, waterproof blanket on top and I put one of my blankies that smell like me inside and she jumped right in and when it’s cold she just curls up and goes into shut down mode lmfao.

I think the neurologist is actually going to help me. Ofc one of the first things he said was “oh you’re on a lot of psychiatric drugs” and I shut him down. This ain’t my meds this started a year ago after the incident. But he’s actually gonna do tests and stuff so I’m kinda hopeful

I don’t even get along with ppl that aren’t a little fucked up in the head tho yk. Like what’s your problem? Nothing? I ain’t got nothing in common with you. Lmao. But you’ve been such great friends to me I will always cherish you all so much mwahhh

No I think it was just a fucking male Dr / not taking female-presenting patients seriously. He told me “oh it’ll just get better with time” and brushed me off. I like my pcp but he’s still a fucking man. That’s also why I want my mom there with me to the neuro cause it’s a fucking MAN. 🤢

Cute girl and her puppy

So been playing PLZA and I found an Alpha Hawlucha at rank X. And a shiny houndour that fits my girl’s aesthetic well. Rank D here we come next.

Plus I took this blorbo off the team for now but look at this dopey thing

The neurologist I’m going to see is the one I’m pretty sure told me to “change my diet” when I went to my migraines cause he blamed it all on psychiatric stuff so I begged my mom to take me and back me up (plus I don’t remember much of the accident, I was unconscious) and she can give outside info

Felt 😮‍💨

I’m so sorry bbs I love you guys so much 🫂🫂 yall are amazing and wonderful just so you know and i love yall

They did an mri of my brain and were like “well there’s not enough evidence to send you to one” and now a year later I made like a huge list of cognitive decline I’ve had and they’re like “well okay” luckily my mom took off work to take me so she can back me up.

When I’ve barely been able to function for a year ok Mr doctor lol

At first it was “well you OD’d on a lot of medication and your brain mri is fine, the cognitive function should get better, no neurologist will see you”
Year later: “well you WERE without oxygen to your brain, haha, brains r weird. Your memory and shit fucked. Let’s send you to neurologist.”

Realized the reason im a hermit and push everyone away is cause i have no self esteem or confidence anymore. I hate myself. I don’t even know how to carry on a conversation anymore i always just wanna be alone, in my own little misery bubble. if i go out (only for cigs/appts) im anxious and downcast

Thank you bbs I love yall too 🫂 this month has been hard between med changes and physical illness, the depression is really now just setting in. But I have my big sister on my side and she’s getting married soon so I’m happy for her. She lives in Turkey and wants me to visit soon for fresh scenery

This month a year ago I tried to commit suicide and ended up with even more limited mobility and am in an even worse situation than ever before. Wonder how that makes me feel.

I’m so tired of getting the “young female” treatment by “medical professionals”. I know what the fuck I’m talking about, you have no clue that if you saw my medical history as a book it’d probably reach the ceiling. I’ve had chronic and mental illness since I was born. I think I know a bit.

(33c)

It’s 8:30am and it’s 67f but the humidity is making it feel like a nice 72f. Which means they say later today the humidity is going to make it feel like a nice 92f. I love the south.

Screenshot of Pokémon X and Y battle maison with text from a trainer saying “Woo-hoo! My husband got food poisoning, so now I get to do whatever I want to do!”

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I don't know what this marshmallow is going through, but I feel it Putme Put me on fire' a marshmallow bag with a marshmallow cartoon character that says 'put me on fire'

i think everyone needs to get a lot less religious

The oral surgeon fucked up my whole fucking mouth not just the extractions. I have ulcers on the inside of my cheek?? And my stitches started coming out DAY TWO (2) and were gone by day 4. Now day 5 all three have dry socket. I’m fuckin dying kurwa

It’s so fucked up I have to be like “b..but it’s o..okay I’m taking care of my pain.. r-right? Y-you won’t take away my mental health mediation… will you? 😭”

since I had fucking 3 teeth extractions at the same time and am on pain medication and see my psychiatrist in 3 days. Fucked up.

Precious girl sleeping on her leaf mat. Nothing that my cat loves this much is “a waste of money”. Nothing for my cat is ever a bother to me and I’d do anything for her.

It’s 9/11 and I just wanna say happy anniversary to the concept of My Chemical Romance

A leaf mat for Rue the cat, covered in fur and claw sheddings 🥹 she loves it she lays on it all the time

Fucked themselves over in their jobs and shit so they’re in shit moods all the time so they shit on ME even MORE than usual. My mom bitches at me constantly. Like, look, any little thing I buy for my cat Rue she says “you shouldn’t have wasted your money” does this look like a waste? (Alt text)

suicide and then got even more severely disabled in my body, my left leg, and have needed walking aids. It’s been hard dealing with this new pain and and the other issues it’s brought. Plus all my other health issues. And my parents help by taking me to the store or going for me but they’ve

I’ve been out of touch with the world cause I’m dealing with too much in my life. Living with my parents at 32 years old when they’re just old middle class southern Christian white people and they’re so out of touch with me and my beliefs I cant stand them. Next month will be a year since I attemptd