becky - a tortured poet

david. put it back.

unfortunately for anyone i know… i have just discovered ethel cain and im about to make it everyone’s problem.

what is in this music. i am fundamentally changed.

beth moore 🙃

and can’t manage to post something more clear than “im not pro trump” that is the same harmful shit you spent 1,045 words saying you “survived”

a prominent evangelical voice posted an approximately 1,050 word statement on X today where she ended it by saying she “isn’t pro trump”

sorry ! but if you find the need to be that verbose, include a list of things you are “pro” that equate to some pretty standard christian bigotry

the carpathia and the heat of mercy

they want us to feel like we can’t fight this. but the thing about humanity is that we always have.

soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/two-days-o...

maybe i’ve already lived all my best days

and maybe that’s actually ok.

soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/i-already-...

charles 😭😭 this honestly will mean so much to her. and does to me too. thank you 💜 hope you and the family are well!

thank you 💜 they have good protections in place but every sunday night i just feel heavy with dread of what the pressure cooker of this administration is going to cause

bc the horrors are really happening to other people. so who am i to say im worried about a possibility.

but i just am. im afraid. and im angry. and i’m just exhausted.

and i don’t know where to put this heaviness i carry

this fear and anxiety.

my brother also works a job that could put him in the way. less directly than my mom. but not an absent threat.

i was unprepared for the visceral reaction to watching, in real time, the events i fear for my mom & brother

and in a world of endless horrors i also know living in the what ifs isn’t good for us.

but it’s my mom, ya know? and we watched a woman get shot this week for driving away.

and the other agency in our state that does the same work as her - had ICE outside their doors.

about what her being arrested and detained could look like. what she would do in the event a client needs protections.

and i am ENDLESSLY proud of her and the work she does. and i KNOW that im extremely privileged to have the parents i do. who did the work and unlearned the harms of conservatism

something i haven’t talked about many places really is that my mom works in a job that makes her a direct target for ICE.

early last year trump accused organizations like the one she is at of aiding domestic terrorists.

we had some hard conversations this weekend. about what activism means.

no one is coming to stop this. on state violence, spectacle, and moral distance

full article here:

if you are waiting for a moment when everyone agrees something has gone too far —
you will wait until there is nothing left to save.
if you are waiting for permission to resist —
you will never receive it.
power does not grant consent to be challenged.

no one is coming to stop this. on state violence, spectacle, and moral distance

the full piece is linked here: soliloquiesandsonnets.substack.com/p/no-one-is-...

this is your warning, written in plain language:
history is not waiting to see what you believe — it is watching what you tolerate.
every silence is a vote. every excuse is permission.

when the story is finally told, it will not ask who was comfortable.
it will ask who refused to look away.

this whole thread is so cool!! what a great idea. love that you listened to this one!

but Vincent Lima has been my top artist on spotify for 2 years, his writing is beautiful and gut wrenching and masterful storytelling. His voice also is in a very deep register that feels like hozier/bon iver to me.

Vincent Lima - To Love A Thing That Fades

it’s probably my all time favorite album (outside taylor swift’s tortured poet’s but that album just carries too much significance personally for me to recommend objectively. and it’s mainstream so i don’t have to make ppl aware 😂😅)

f*ck the fresh start on choosing familiarity in a month obsessed with reinvention

for those of us who maybe need permission to let today look a lot like yesterday. and to make tomorrow more of the same.

i’m proud of myself for pushing my creativity and testing out new things. my blog has also seen a steady increase in traffic. not nearly this dramatic. but a good amount!

def keeping this energy for 2026 🫶🏻

in July, i decided to give tiktok a real shot. at first it was bc i wanted to try finding new places to share things i write, but quickly became a fun and new creative outlet for me.

i have posted at least once every day since July 8th. I have gotten nearly 4k new followers and almost 10M views !!

instead tonight there are college students on the campus of Brown University facing yet another mass casualty event at the hands of someone with a gun…

this country is fucked and i will, at my first opportunity, vote to take your guns away.

tomorrow is the anniversary that marks 13 years since the sandy hook shooting. the event that should have been the turning point in this gun control conversation.

the fact that it wasn’t. and that if those babies had lived they would be in college now. and

taking what little reliable energy i do have and making me spend it on something that, while good, will not allow me to establish independence or help me afford needs that food stamps don’t cover.

i’m exhausted. demoralized. depressed.

i can’t get disability benefits bc they don’t recognize my disability. i can’t find a job that accommodates my ever changing and crippling health.

so ill be giving 20 hours of my week, for free, in order to keep my access to food.

i wish we lived in a world where people did not have to prove they are worthy of food by taking advantage of their labor. i wish that our government recognized disability in a way that has inclusivity for chronic and invisible illness.

the big beautiful bill now has a work requirement attached to it in order to receive food stamps.

if you can’t find work, you can volunteer. i’ve been job hunting for a job with accommodations for almost 3 years. no luck.

found a place that’ll take my labor for free, though.