mel (-28.8/33)

Got my license reinstated w/ a restriction and I've got a burning desire to tell the DMV my weight in a few months has dropped another 10-15 lbs

another late update, ofc I'm on my period and maintained (mostly) through the month

chat why do I always get diarrhea in the afternoon at work could it be my vanilla latte in the morning 😭😭

late update (and also in dark mode bc why not) but not as good a month

oh yeah I think I'm going through like the MOST intense derealization episode I've ever experienced and idk it kinda feels like it's been happening ever since my grandpa died??? like my whole life went on pause then and anything that's happened since feels like a fever dream

and now that I have a lawyer and I'm working on shit my appetite has returned and my wl has slowed 😮‍💨

my dad's worried about me 🥲 funny how everyone thought he'd be the one to crash out when his dad died but no it's me I'm the one who's crashing out

also the good news is I'm literally losing almost all fat?? Sure some muscle/other stuff goes but that being 1.3 lbs out of the 8.1 is SO GOOD imo

following up on this a pair of lounge pants I really like now fit again so it evens out

oh yeah I'm finally out of the BMI 30s and a pair of pants I liked are too loose on me now

good month but for the wrong reasons haha fml

shit maybe the only perk of my actions is that I'll be encouraged to get therapy and if it's court ordered I can't exactly refuse

y'all ,,,, weight loss this month is POPPPING OFF but I didn't lock in

no instead i got myself a criminal record and I've been beating myself up about it and yeah

absolutely devastated once again that my mother can't just say she loves me. how hard is it to leave it as "I love you" and not make it an "I love you, but..."

like it's my fault she was always "too tired" to play or talk or do anything with me, when I was young or as a teen.

changed scales and the format is a lil different but here we are

Looking like this in his passenger seat

wait send me game recs I'm finally getting back onto my steam deck

fully lied to my dad otp telling him abt my non-existent dinner plans 💔

got a new smartscale bc I found out my old one was def selling my data 💔

once again the time for the age-old debate:

to count my exercise calories for net intake, or to not count my exercise calories and just worry about my intake cals

we will be losing at least 5lb this month TRUST ME (manifesting)

well change is change ig

25 hours fasting, pleasantly high, and finished a crochet project!! decent Saturday

time to settle into a movie theater with my giant Pepsi zero for the next two hours

fasting fasting fasting haha getting to the stage where I really want carbs (~21 hrs)

def desperate to be down like 20 lbs in the next 8 weeks