--•- •• -•-- (¢°v¡d round 7? 8? idk lol)

and by "break" we mean an extra 1-3 bathroom mins cos if we took an actual break ND brain would have a much harder time navigating that unless we somehow were able to do a 10 min power nap there's no activity we can do for 15 mins and then transition back to work it's just easier to split break up

hm...something tells me having random red spots sporadically pop into vision is...not great?? lol we're fiine it's fiiine...

lol forgot my sheets are still like fire to my skin

gonna stop pacing and start doing nerve gIides. or anything really to make existence more tolerable. room is kinda dark cos of rain, and the darkness-triggered PTSD isn't acting up which is nice. maybe we can finally rest eyes. maybe we can nap. gonna leave food situation in denial for another day 😇

loved that part of homeschooling included making dinner. mum had excellent recipes and we were damn good at it but they were usually pretty complex, prob why she recruited us kids to help lol but it's annoying now to know i Can be GREAT in the kitchen but chronic health and trauma has made us Simple

oohhhh that sounds so good omg ty for sharing!!

it's been grey all day
and now it is finally
beginning to rain
💧

tbh i always forget there are a million types, hope they got your order in tho! do u have a fav type and do u have a fav way to prep that's simple?

and idk the eggs are prob fine for a few weeks but i don't want taters going bad and i feel awkward cooking in shared kitchen when im sick but i'd feel even more awkward asking someone to make my food for me. UGH i don't even want to eat, why couldn't we have gotten sick BEFORE going shopping 😭 FUCK

the whole "out of sight/mind" thing hits dif when quarantining myself almost immediately after buying things to make something besides salad cos we pretty much never have the mental energy to make things with fresh ingredients but now there are fuckin potatoes and eggs chillin for breakfast burritos

ooh salmon too 👀 very noice

WOOO!! so glad they had a slot for you, hope it's what u need it to be - u got this!! 💪💖

oh no!! :(

oh my dear med changes are never fuckin easy are they 😭 sorry it's all building up :'( so glad u got big sis tho :') that'd be a crazy awesome trip omg have u been there before? that's exciting 💖

ooh right on! if u can get a model number or something that'd be dope but ty for reminding me zipper ones exist too!!!

LMFAO 🤣 as if we don't log in to this site multiple times a week AT WORK 💀 (when on "break" lol dw we Work when clocked in 😎) but yah im pretty sure *someone* is at least aware of the existence of my page bahahahaha

while im sad we didn't end up going to chiro Fri i feel it was the responsible thing to do in hindsight. my neck/head/back/joints/body NOT happy with me tho haha AND it's gonna rain the next two days!! so much fun 🙃 fml

*Bot Stewart lol sry my keyboard hates meh...
...aand apparently im loopy enough to apologise to a bot while simultaneously insulting its "choice" to repost a previous entry lol IM SO TIRED

the problem is, we apparently have to beware The Problem With Bot and sensor "the problem" LMFAO lemme vent in peace yo my existence is a problem 😭 🤣

aw man, that sounds rough, but im glad it's pretty localised

i want granola. we don't have granola. can't see myselves.asking for granola; pretty sure someone would have to go get it lol. guess we won't be eating any cos we sure as heck aren't going anywhere.

okay so fuzzy blanket feels like caterpillars crawling on me but my sheets which normally feels smooth and soft feel rough like The Motel blanket that my face was smashed into so idk i wish we had another better option to sleep why must we be simultaneously cold and hot WHY i don't understand it ugh

the problem is, we ate when we were hungry, which makes it harder to stop before we're full 😭 FUUUCK

that garlic bread was good. im glad we could still taste it. i know it would've been stronger at a dif time but this might be the one time im happy about all the shit they slather this bread in 😭

and it wasn't weird btw we had a great ProfERSiONAL relationship and often joked about "how many 🍃'weeds' is a gummy" referencing my ed¡bI€s vs smoke and what the conversions would be, he'd join our ADHD bunny-trails-of-thought and was usually able to remember the original reason for stopping by lol

boss at previous job found one of our twts before even hiring us and then idk when but i feel like it was after we became supervisor he started checking it Sun nights so he'd know what kind of weekend we were coming in from 😂 (this was when we were with ex so LOTS of ups downs but never talked shit)

when we chew we feel it strongly, esp in lower parts of ribcage. weren't gonna omad and then B popped by offering garlic bread right after we had flashback so just automatically said yes cos groggy brain and also it's B and he'd prob be happy that we're eating something...😅...right?...we hope??...😇😶

we had been doing the whole "don't weigh in Oct" but pretty sure we weighed on the 10th (number hadn't moved) and today is the 20th so what if we do the exercises that will expedite gut movement and maybe MAYBE we could weigh tonight, though i suppose since the end is 31 not 30 maybe 21 would be ok?

don't wanna eat. was just debating what to have and stummy made the most glorious noise like we should be able to get an accurate weight by tomorrow morning lmao

THANK YOU. looking into this. appreciate you!