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good morning L we hope you have a wonderful day! 💖

another night conquered, another day to face. why must it be like this forever

wanna go to bed but feeling very nervous

this would be dope af! and to have an actual check in option would be golden omg it's crazy how often idek what my body might need

i hear that, prob not a bad policy to adopt but i understand how hard that'd be to follow when u vibe so hard

if it was safe, i wouldn't give a fuck about socially acceptable 😭 i must be smothered and squeeshed in Safe Arms and there's only one person Brain would even consider trusting and it would be a physical impossibility due to their shoulders' limitations and my unpredictable jumpiness 😭 FUCK TRAUMA 😭

lol not a horrible problem to have...curious tho is it a work or personal policy to not befriend coworkers?

real 💀

weather is weird indeed, glad ur okay!!

this week gonna suuuck my rings will be switching between slipping everywhere and needing dish soap to come off, might just wear compression gloves to work cos we don't have regular gloves for *reasons* (mostly sensory reasons why we never use windbreakers or snow coats or gloves lol i miss tropics)

don't wanna eat but also don't wanna pass out in shower or on road tomorrow. think it's supposed to snow 😭

it's gonna be R's bday soon so tryna not think about that

omg congrats!!! that's exciting hehe 😁🎉💖

(the skin reaction also happened when i was giving my card to the person to run the payment so that's how i know with B it's not just cos mel likes him lolol)

ack okay sry we're fuckin talking a lot.
time for omad.
then chat.
then shower.
we can do this.

nap failed but at least we actually got to lay down for half an hour! Back needed that. wish we had a chin up bar that we could also hang off by knees n shit. bars were like our fav thing on the playground and it was the one element of gymnastics we never got to do (accidents=logistically difficult)

sucks that some of the best backrubs we used to get were from people who turned out to be creeps. smh. not fuckin fair

don't have energy for shower but don't know if i can get away with skipping it 😭 i know when that warm water hits it'll prob turn into a 90 min ordeal...shit. maybe we should try to eat before chat. if chat at 1745 lasts 90-120, and eating takes 30-90 (yes i eat slowly 💀)...fuck this is awful timing

eeeee happy tree!!! and ur lookin fuckin lovely as always 😁😇 hope u have recovered from tree!

this is reminding me about the Stud¡° C sketch about the weather forecast that ends with the world ending lmao are you okay??

we need more/better Distinct *good* memories of being held

it's bad enough that my skin actually reacts when my fingertips meet B's when passing a 🍃 smoke or when chiro moves my hair out of the way to adjust my spine. it didn't used to be this way and i do believe this is contributing to flashbacks cos Brain doesn't filter out the bad memories of being held

omg i bet tree is cozy!! sucks that's all it took for your body to rebel but im glad ur still trying to push yourself a bit...just don't overdo it! do u still use aids n stuff? also if comfy kind sharing pic of tree? we don't have space for one so we try to enjoy others' lol 💖🎄

we haven't gotten Sick sick yet so apparently we're doing the right things cos it still feels like we're fighting it. and yeah we typically wake up in a flashback, when we try to lay down there's usually one a few dif ones, and cans prob do the most to our body except when The Motel happens at home.

that's smart...don't think we have asthma but multiple bros do so maybe we do and just don't know it lol but that might help anyway cos long ¢°v¡d be doin some shit

(also that's heckin ADORABLE 😭:3 we love you :')<33)

ooh we have a widget with calendar items but didn't think to use it for to-dos too...hmm...that could be quite helpful...our current list situation is chaotic and scattered, but there are too many dif types of lists and it's hard to keep everything straight lol i dream of creating a program for this

just want to be held and maybe even get a backrub idk FUCK im so touch starved 😭😣😞

sending much love 🖤

also we can't stop shivering and skin is extra sensitive today so we have that polish trap going through the speakers and we still feel it on low volume which might help us ground enough to actually sleep during this nap attempt...hopefully. idk what last night was but it wasn't good that's for sure