Jesse Haigh

I have been chocolate-free for almost 2 years now. Chocolate is my favorite sweet. I've missed it so much. I'm so glad it's not a problem for me. 😭

I CAN EAT CHOCOLATE AGAIN

we don't expect this contract will be extended past 3 months. if you'd like to work with me i'll be considering other roles pretty soon, in the next month.

i just want to get settled into this job & enjoy it for a bit first. :)

first week at the new job & it's going well i think! it's a 3 month contract to work on a few contributions to DocC. all of my work is open source so hopefully i'll share a bit along the way.

i didn't ignore these meetings on purpose. i sent an apology. i just thought i'd get an email about new events or calendar notifications by default.

alternatively maybe "HELLOOOOO!!? D:"

i think my new manager should put a meeting on my calendar with the name "HEY >:("

i opened my calendar _yesterday_ & saw i missed TWO meetings.
first: "hello!"
second: "HELLO! :)"

taking care of vera also helped me figure out my own health issues & learn how to take better care of myself, even with the challenges of caregiving for a loved one. it showed me what i'm good at, especially deep diving into problems until i find answers.

some of her issues are still being resolved, but i'm really proud of my caregiving work. it's one of the most challenging things i've done, but it was worth it. she is doing a lot better now than any other time since i've known her.

it took me a while to recognize that my partner isn't lazy. she's disabled. i spent about a year, 2 years ago, trying to figure out what her problems were & how we could help her feel as well as possible.

i've had part time jobs & i've worked as a software developer, but i quit my last full time job to focus on caregiving, though that wasn't immediately clear to me.

it's been 4 years since i was working at a tech company & since i've had a full time job. i hope this is the start of a new chapter of my life.

i got the job i interviewed for & i start on monday. i'm genuinely so excited & grateful. 😌

life with the normal amount of anxiety (little to none) feels like cheating

i also felt very good about the interview i had today. i'm not sure i've ever felt that way before. i'm feeling grateful for the positive experience because now i know i could do just as well in other interviews.

selfie of a white person smiling on a swing

purple rice noodle ramen (tastier than it looks)

i got a chance to go to the park today & i had my celebration rice noodle ramen.

i suspect i had issues with complex carbs & sugars because breaking down those foods is the primary job of the small intestine. i can't imagine it does that job well when it's damaged.

so knowing potatoes are fine for me now i also suspect my intestines are either completely or mostly healed now.

i tried potatoes 2 weeks ago & they seemed to be perfectly fine for me!

i didn't have noticeable stomach pain or issues until i removed gluten from my diet (because it acts the same as a painkiller). when i tried potatoes after being gluten free for a few months it gave me horrible stomach pain.

i wanted to go get some ramen that i'm pretty sure is made from rice, but i realized potentially making my stomach upset or messing up my brain before the interview tomorrow is a bad idea. but maybe it's celebration ramen after tomorrow.

i'm finally trying to introduce more foods after doing SCD since september 2023.

the part i feel like i'm struggling the most with is the "tell me about yourself" part of interviews. i've been practicing for the technical section & i'm feeling okay about it, though i'm sure there's room for improvement.

i have a technical interview tomorrow for the first time in several years & i'm really hoping it goes well.

trying to convince myself that i should go back to sleep actually & start the next print in the morning. i'm just excited about the project i'm working on.

got our 3d printers set up today with the help of a friend & my first print just finished around 2:30am.

if someone had suggested i had celiac while i was still living with my dad, it would've been awful because i would've regularly been exposed to cross-contact & i'm certain that would've been even more miserable being gluten free.

for me, if someone had suggested celiac to me 10 years ago, i would've gotten tested & avoided a lot of physical & emotional pain. i would've been grateful.

but it's hard to know if someone is in a position to do something with that information or if it would be a burden they couldn't do anything about. maybe that's why we don't. there are so many barriers to feeling better.

i do not understand why it’s socially unacceptable to offer potential medical explanations for someone’s symptoms. instead we’re all just quietly watching each other fall apart.

they really should've called Grind 69

quick grocery run & then more interview prep?