Renée Renegade Angel

warhammer is dolls. rpg characters are imaginary dolls, DIY home improvement is dolls house, i'm a doll, everything is dolls. if im having a dinner party or friends round for tea, i'm playing dolls with people. everything's dolls. I gotta line up and pose my dollies ok. it's my thing. it's calming

I'm broke and having to ask my dad for money to get by each month, but even if I had my own disposable income I'd just buy dolls and drugs with it instead of replacing broken household appliances, because I'm an irresponsible autistic piece of stuff, and that's ok. no shame.

Gonna be honest, it did feel a bit like I had been going crazy, especially since even before any of these revelations, a lot of career transphobes were quite openly pedophilic, Germaine Greer self-described as a pederast "like all women of taste", and yet nobody seemed to see the red flags.

any 'phobes I've met in the real world were daytime TV addicts or sly side-eyeing cowards who used senior work positions to bully and gossip, but as for street harassment, in 13 years I've had none. zero nadda zilch. it's a bitch-made bigotry

a chart showing a steep decline in the share price for Palantir

amazing things are happening

yeah it is kinda like we live in a scooby doo version of world of darkness where every nasty supernatural creature eating our children is really just some guy in a mask eating our children. whaddaya gonna do

WELL WELL WELL WELL

the confirmation of contemporary transphobia as a political movement has been the brainchild of a boys club made up of some of the most disgusting monsters in recent memory to explicitly keep trans women disenfranchised so as to subjugate and exploit us for their own sexual gain is like

a lot, dawg

a cinema movie cardboard standee of avatar 3. 10 foot tall blue cat aliens ride a space pterodactyl in foreground, flying jellyfish airship in background, based on James Caneron concept art from the 70s

hell yeah I did

yeah I went and saw avatar 3 again, and I'm expecting to bring home one of the movie standees from the cinema at the weekend, really hoping for some sky jellyfish for my bedroom

ok it is cold as hell, i could just stay indoors today clamped to a radiator and eat beans from the tin, or i could go to town at lunchtime to see my local cinema's last showing of avatar 3, but that does mean coming home in the dark, which i am loathe to do

andrew wakefield belongs in prison

so does hilary cass. she's done the same thing to gender affirming care and trans ppl as andrew wakefield has done to vaccinations and autistic ppl

@bphillipsonmp.bsky.social and wes streeting should be in court

doctors who wilfully create medical disinformation

the alternative way to look at this: the lengths i will go and discomforts i am willing to suppress and the money i can seem to find all to buy myself a new doll i wanted :/

sssuck it

a week ago I couldn't leave the house for more than a couple of hours without panicking and the whole time I'd be waiting for the shaking to start. and the thing about Cambridge is my brain categorises it as tough since I got raped there a year ago. and instead I've been out for 5 hours, on a whim

Avatar 3 was amazing btw

i set out to do things and was constantly confounded by life and the fact I was already having a breakdown but kept heaping more pressure on myself. I shouldn't be surprised how dire things got for a bit. now I've done the things, and more

today I went on the train to go shopping in Cambridge after deciding I wanted to do that last night instead of shopping on amazon. and it's been successful. I'm really pleased.

but like I know it's autism all the way down- shopping, painting, the pictures, not being able to eat for 8 days, anxiety

going fully to pieces after the hospital on Friday has somehow given me ability to live, do and cope again to a much better degree than if i tried to slowly manage the decline and idgi

I wanted to go to the pictures for 3 weeks but anxiety wouldn't let me. took myself on Monday. yesterday I painted

You said that people who are opposed to genocide, trans rights, climate change "want a pony". It's like the "one joke" of weak ass centrist libs. Fuck off, nerd.

HOT WATER AND HEATING, BABY! DESIRE FOR FOOD RETURNS, BABY! INTEREST IN THINGS RETURNS, BABY! horrifically bruised hands and wrists from the hospital blowing my veins and its actually a bit distressing, baby

they said my job comes with a 401k but i don't want to paint little soldiers in retirement

one of the reasons everybody hates late arrivals from the right or even the center is they're all weepy little idiots who want to be coddled and forgiven and make it everybody else's problem. shut up, figure out how to help fix what you broke, and stop writing thinkpieces

the world's so fucked and im lost in it while also being dirty, bruised, scabby, stinky, deranged, and empty of all the good things

our boiler packed up on Friday in the middle of me already having a breakdown. I've not eaten anything in three days, I've not eaten a proper meal in 8 days- anxietys been too bad, I've had to quit smoking, the hospital blew all my veins trying to get my blood and I really want a shower so bad

thought gone again, back to mindless worry

in the middle of the days-long anxiety attack (in which i am worried about multiple things), one thought shines through- i wish i had big boobs

come the fuck on dude

like he is so sexy and not just because he's a 9 foot tall blue alien cat man, but also I am generally horny for evil yanks if they're kinda funny. so I support the franchise to the hilt, idk if there's a deeper meaning in there, keep up the good work Jim Cameron

I keep not posting my incredibly tepid Avatar take- I saw the first movie in 2009 3 times at the cinema with different friend groups, and was snide and critical about it despite seeing it so many times, and promptly forgot about the franchise afterwards. my take now? evil colonel cat man is sexy