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iridescentlbue: why the fuck would I check my email, that's where the fucking emails are audrey farnsworth: (opening my god damn email) there better not be any god damn emails in here

i shldve died one of the times in my early/mid 20s wish one of them had worked lol i wasnt meant to live beyond that

i fr jst hate ms too much to talk to other human beings anymore theres no point to living im sick of it & so tired , not planning anything bc i dnt want 2 hurt my family more bt rly hope it ends soon

first twitter reply was 2 this effect lol . also deeper cut but thomas traherne also

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bonus: No Cats Here

poetry

getting some Good cat photos tn

Shout out to symptoms

there's no way out tht i can think of so that's nice not like being sexually Useful.halfway competent is the only thing tht ever gave me self esteem or anything

however this'll probably never happen bc i hate ms too much to be able to seek out even like the lowest stakes hookups lol even tho part lf my mind knows tht my body at least is acceptable these days i find ms so physically repulsive makes me nauseous even seeing ms in mirrors by accident lol

p sure that if only i cld stop being so immobilised by sexual shame/self-hatred i cld hook up w/literally any half decent dom/me who actually found me sexually desirable, within a fairly short amt of time i might not want to kms so Desperately lol

many people are saying this is hack but they're wrong actually. man fulfilled his posters covenant

can anyone recommend some good Weird &/or Evil (laudatory) accts to follow on here bc if i am ever going 2 use it i need to make my TL more Unwholesome

lol i hate being out places on bad days rly awful mixed high day so violently tense/wound up feels like my bones are on the verge of shattering frm the pressure lol like yk the way that titanic submarine imploded ? feels like my body is abt to spontaneously Do That

i wish i was purely hypomanic again lol like it was p nice for awhile the other day before i got so high i forgot where i was

say what you like about Queen, but they did wonders for advancing lady godiva's posthumous reputation

i often wonder how many tens of thousands of people know about lady godiva solely bc of that Line

this was p funny i cant get over how she did the early modern medicine thing of being like "this health issue...it's ultimately about shitting, if you think about it,"

one simply must do the Comedy Actions

ironically i dont even particularly LIKE queen lol tho tbf increasingly u think my brain is jst not wired to like most music w lyrics. obviously love freddie mercury but more just bc he was so brilliant at being freddie mercury

mb 3 or 4 ppl have just told me unprompted i remind them of it whch is pretty funny bc i am always like...ok, understandable misconception, however...No, i am in fact absolutely straight-up BEGGING anyone & everyone including God Himself to stop me now,

the answer is simply so Predictable i fear

i shld think of some kind of second Specific brand of Posts to put on here lol like distinct frm my normal ones bc otherwise there realy is no reason i will use this damn app

gotta say reading this absolute series of Words at 3AM the night before my top surgery revision whilst in that head-swimmingly euphoric kind of hypo/mania where it for ONCE just straightforwardly feels INCREDIBLY fucking Good .....positively SUBLIME experience; delicious, impeccable-

i mean .....a fair proportion of days there is a non-zero chance of me inadvertently Doing This,

fuck i shld probably get dressed i have therapy ...VERY Soon

lmao ok...kind of iconic i forgot what this was called. fortunately forgetting regular Words usually means it is likely to be a a day when my Braines are Broken in the rather ENJOYABLE Ways. as opposed to the plethora of Decidedly Not Enjoyable Ways

hi c:

had the ingenious idea of trying to push a mixed state in the hypomania direction by punning on early modern words for orgasm