Amy

I'm not ready for tomorrow. I want to be back at work, I miss it and I also very much miss paychecks, but I'm not ready to have to do things other than hang out with B.

I've been trying to get M to vape instead of smoking, pretty much since I switched last year. He's been fighting me on it, but I finally won. "I guess this one is okay," after I gave him a couple to try. I will 100% settle for "this one is okay" if it keeps him from spending money we don't have.

It's 104° at 8pm, my AC isn't working, and I'm making chili. Because I am smart and make good decisions, obviously.

Nice argument. Unfortunately, your mama

I'm paying this much rent *and* doing this much work to still be miserable? In a place where a rental is considered uninhabitable without working AC? It's fucking ridiculous, but the maintenance guys refuse to listen to me even when we can get around the language barrier. I fucking hate it here.

Plus it's like a whole other job just keeping track of the swamp coolers. Is it time to refill them, are the ice cubes ready, are the dehumidifiers full, I have a headache from all the humidity, I can't do laundry until midnight because of the temp...

Mostly I just miss living in places where I knew I could get it fixed when it broke. That was great. Especially considering rent in those days was like 1/3 of what I pay now, for the same amount of space. Take me baaaack.

I miss when my air conditioner worked during the day, when I need to get things done. That was nice.

Also B reacted exactly the same as my full term babies did, even though he got them before his due date. Low grade fever, Tylenol, sleep, fine the next day. He goes back for his 4mos ones next week and we'll do it all over again.

Someone in my preemie group: "I'm not antivax, I'm just not comfortable introducing anything else to his underdeveloped immune system, so we're waiting."

You do you, I hope you get them eventually, but personally I'd rather introduce the vaccine to that system vs the disease, so B got all of his. 🤷🏻‍♀️

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If you're in the US, there's just *3 days* left to get your orders in. I will be cutting off shipping to the US when I get up Wednesday morning.

I'd like to have some kind of timeline on if I'm coming back, but sadly there's no real info. So now is your chance!

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It's been too long since a BIG BOAT has gotten STUCK.

It's not about the application. It's the state of the country. It feels like volunteering information to the government that I'd rather not.

Whipped cream vodka and chocolate chip cookies, please. I also wouldn't say no to some ice cream.

I don’t think I’m up for like a full on demonic possession type situation, but if you promise to empty the dishwasher and throw a load of laundry in I’ll let you have this mess for like 6-10 hours a day no questions asked

But it's probably good karma or something lol. I have to rely on other people to help him with his in a lot of ways, but I'm helping other people with their, even if it is just to watch a TV show. Idk, I'm tired and stressed and brains are weird.

I was upset and thinking about how nice it will be to get back to work and have a distraction from the possible effects of B's hearing loss on his development. But, uh, my job is not going to distract me from that at all...

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I'm awake because I have a tiny human and sleep schedules are a distant memory. Not sure why you are

At the fact that I heard that when I was injured, or at the person saying that never happened? Both are valid JFCs, I'm just curious lol

I just saw someone say "no one ever said 'if you don't stop crying I'll give you something to cry about' when you were hurt, they said it when you were just throwing a tantrum because you didn't get your way."

Ooh, please tell me more about my childhood, internet stranger. I like your version.

If I can survive like one more month, it'll cool off enough that this can be 2026 Amy's problem. We need the AC year round, but it's not hot enough after September for this particular issue.

I just don't have it in me to argue with people who insist there's nothing wrong and can't understand me when I say yes there is, and then when I finally get through to them, they do something and decide it's fixed and we have to start all over. Just no.

I know I should get maintenance back out here to figure out how to actually fix it, but I just can't. I have to try to remember how to do my job after 4mos off, while taking care of the baby.

Oh, goody. It's gonna be around 110° all week and my AC taps out around 98°. Gonna be a super fun week.

B moved while I was trimming his nails and I cut him with the clippers, and I'm pretty sure I cried harder than he did. We've made it through three or four trims before this with no tears but...yeah.

The money stuff in question this time is about his hearing aids and how screwed we are if we can't get them before the end of the year. We met his deductible by the time he was like 12 hours old. But if this takes too long and it resets....

Every time money stuff comes up (which is always, because capitalism) I think about the fact that B meets the criteria for SSI but I'm super uncomfortable trying to get him on it in this hellscape. Great country we have here.

I honestly wouldn't even care except it's going to take forever to get him in if they're treating him like a brand new patient that's never been there, and we're losing valuable time here.