Amy

The Walmart notifications I get keep getting more and more deranged. "Thanks for buying potato chips! We think you'll love this purse." What???

I've been up since 6am trying to get rid of a headache. I finally succeeded and could probably go back to sleep, but I guarantee B will wake up exactly two minutes after I fall asleep.

With M, he'll just lay on his mat and play with his toys and he's fine. But if I'm in the room, he needs 120% of me.

The only time he doesn't scream when I'm not 100% focused on him is when Miss Rachel or Super Simple Songs catches his attention for 5mins. And I need those 5mins if I would like to stay employed (and therefore alive)

I can't decide if I'm horrified or amused by the fact that I have to spend $80 on a TV later this month, when I'm this fucking broke. It's absurd, but it's also necessary. It's literally the key to surviving WFH with the baby. (No lectures on screen time, k thanks. It's literally survival atp.)

Do I have $5 to spend on chocolate? No, not really. Do I need emergency chocolate so I can maybe not scream? Yep.

Capitalism. Go big or go home.

(and as a millennial woman, ruining things is kind of my life's work)

I keep saying we need to try harder, we haven't ruined enough things

My granddad had a VCR that had two tape thingies, specifically for copying them. We rented A LOT of movies. Also my mom paid for HBO and my aunt paid for Disney so we could all record things and have him copy them for each other. He loved it, he typed the little labels and everything 😂

Silver hoop earrings with purple crocheted flower petals around the outsides

I still have to weave in the ends and seal these, but that's for after work. But yay, earrings! (They are purple, the lighting is just weird right now.)

Oh, I see. It looks like he *wants* me to resent him for it. Because that's gonna turn out well for any of us.

Also, notice how even when I try to take some time for myself, it's still productive and an attempt to make money? Totally sustainable, totally great for my depression, totally not going to make me resent M for having time to sit around with the Switch 🙃

This is not me complaining about B. I adore that boy and being his mommy is one of my favorite things I've ever done. Just acknowledging that this shit is hard, that's all.

Silly me, I forgot I'm not allowed to do anything but take care of the baby and go to work (usually at the same time, because who doesn't love working two overlapping full-time jobs)

I woke up early and thought I might get a few minutes to myself. But M is asleep on the couch, so when I turned on a lamp in the bedroom because I need to see to work on these earrings, it woke up the baby.

40 years ago we’d have congressional hearings falsely accusing metal bands of putting backwards messages in their songs that told kids to kill themselves & now we have a planet-killing chatbot that’s all like “bet you won’t commit suicide chickenshit bitch” & the government is like here’s $5 billion

It's hard enough forcing myself to eat lately, but then on top of the PPD stealing my appetite, it's also making the whole thing a sensory nightmare, so every night I give up on dinner after a few bites and get a bowl of cereal.

This is an especially bad time for this to be happening.

Goodnight, y'all! Headed to bed with $1545 left to raise to cover November bills. Every dollar helps! It's been one loss after another this year, without y'alls kindness I don't know where we'd be. Thank you, thank you for making the difference for me and my little family.

Whomst among us has not explained to their 6 month old how silly 2FA feels? "I put in my password to unlock the computer, then I put in my password to open my email, but then I need a code from a text to open it for real. Then I put in the PW on this website but then there's a code in an email..."

I read this and immediately thought “well that would actually be awesome because then Marty can go back to the 90s where he probably had a really awesome time as a teenager” and then I was like oh wait his PARENTS would have been teenagers in the 90s and then I just sat here for like 45 minutes

Even though it’s true Republicans are in court demanding that American children go hungry, it’s unfair to not point out that the reason Republicans are doing that is to make sure American families also lose their health care coverage.

this administration has not worked diligently on anything except the starving and robbery of the people it is meant to serve

the fury i feel is indescribable.

*glares at everything* Stop that.

Could we get more eyes on this please? Im running out of time to find lodging. Any help would mean so much to me.

Here we go, another day in hell (aka the job I used to love)

Today in my brain is absolute nonsense: feeling guilty because I keep hugging my baby to make myself feel better and that seems selfish. Except...he doesn't care? He's glad he's getting hugs from Mommy? This is a win-win and yet my brain insists I'm being selfish

Even just like $50 would let me get the last couple of things I need and have a tiny cushion in case of emergency, so maybe some of the panicked screaming in my head will stop

Second time dealing with postpartum depression during a recession: same as the first, a little bit louder and a lotta bit worse.

Which is fucking ridiculous, considering I was also trying to survive DV the first time.