Rowan (she/they)

a bunch of 100 dollar bills are falling from the sky ALT: a bunch of 100 dollar bills are falling from the sky

life update I am still in hospital, under a section 3, and filing lawsuits bc of multiple human rights violations. with 50+ pages of poetry written in the last month

The attached gif is me in my head every time they fuck me over and break the law again

🎵just another naaaaail in the coffin…..🎵

Sweet irony.. from a zine I made at my last hospital w/o Oxe (‘A Patient’s Guide to 1-1 Staff and Where to Find Them) - think my artistic rendition is pretty spot on.

(This Oxevision is turned off… because of the argument I had with SABP ages ago…)

@stopoxevision.bsky.social
#madsky

A picture of an oracle card with the words ‘Pink Seeds - growth under the surface’

On my way to an inpatient mental health ward this evening. In general hospital waiting. Nervous but trying to keep it together. Card of the day is very apt. #madsky

Autistics to Boris Johnson: don’t even fucking think about it Autistic people have issued a statement explaining to Boris Johnson that autism does not cause you to become a compulsively lying, law-breaking, nation-wrecking cunt. The statement encourages Johnson ...

“Oh no you fucking don’t. Seriously, you tosspot, you’re not one of us and we wouldn’t want you even if you were. Step one foot on our lovely spectrum and we’ll yeet you directly into the sun.”

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At the end of the day we do have a duty to ourselves and to protect ourselves. If something that someone is doing is distressing to us, provided it’s not actually harmful, it’s our job to step away. Maybe this person needs to understand that. Regardless none of it is on you. 💗

Having seen your posts for a while you’ve always been conscientious of what you say, so I really don’t think any duty or responsibility sits with you here. I’m sure they’re struggling but it was unnecessary for them to say that to you and maybe just unkind?

You can’t possibly anticipate the triggers of a stranger who chooses to read your post. I feel for them, but… mental illness isn’t your fault but it is your responsibility. We can’t ask people not to speak freely (within reason) on the internet in fear that somebody somewhere may be distressed by it

Yeah, this sucks. It may well have been genuinely really triggering for them but you can’t hold the responsibility for that. Triggers can be literally anything, they’re individual to each person. We owe each other kindness and have responsibility to be mindful of what we post, but only to a point

Supporting families with inquests following domestic abuse Leanne Devine explains how violence towards women is a key part in the lives of women whose deaths are investigated at inquests.

As part of #16DaysofActivism, human rights partner @leadevine27.bsky.social explains her work and how gender-based violence is a key part in the lives of women whose deaths are investigated at inquests where she represents.

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One thousand hundred million percent all of this

Wow, this is a pretty stunning exercise in mental gymnastics. It’s amazing how much work people will do to justify the things that they don’t want to change. The conclusion comes first - the narrative follows.

The system always resists change. For things to be better we have to start somewhere.

I wish A&Es had an actual protocol for supporting autistic people and had things like fidgets/earplugs/ear defenders available, because this is genuinely a hostile environment. There’s also very little structure to my day which I’m finding very difficult. #MadSky #AutisticSky

‘You get more autistic in hospital’ is something I’m finding very true so far.

I’m stuck in A&E and it feels like my circuits are fried. I’ve not been this sensory-sensitive in a very long time. I think it’s because it’s so constant and out of control, and you just spend so much time waiting.

…just as I’d said would be necessary weeks ago. But now I’m stuck 1-1 in A&E until they find a bed. I seem to have hit the magic button that means they’re seeing me as ill and needing help rather than hysterical. Which is nice but I don’t trust it will last.

In updates.. I was sent to a crisis house, quickly deemed too high risk to be there, htt messed about so ended up with them calling an ambulance as didn’t feel able to keep me safe. So that’s CMHRS messing up. Psychiatrist and psych liaison team all agreeing I need an inpatient admission.

#3GoodThings A&E waiting for MH IP bed edition

1. I’m being taken seriously and not accused or insinuated of attention seeking or a PD (yet)

2. I have lush sleepy lotion and shower gel with me and it’s v soothing

3. The hospital shop has Ben&jerrys ice cream

#madsky

White woman wearing a Halloween pumpkin skirt, black top, with a bubbly orange walking stick.

Having my stick now is part of me - I coordinate it to my outfits, have a bit of fun with it. I can do a bit without my stick but even if I don’t necessarily need it when I leave the house.. I definitely do by the time I’m getting back!

It gets easier. Love from someone further along 💗

When I first used my stick I felt the same. I’m 5-6 years in now and you do get used to the impostor syndrome. Remember that using a stick is a pain in the arse - takes up one of your hands all the time - and if it helps you more than it hinders; that’s because you need it.

Join us on Zoom for Synergi’s monthly Peer Support Space Join us on Zoom Monday 9th December from 12 – 2pm for a free, supportive space for people with lived experience of racism, working or volunteering in user-led peer groups or campaigning capacities.

Synergi are holding a zoom peer support space on Monday 9th December from 12 – 2pm for people with lived experience of racism, working or volunteering in user-led peer groups or campaigning capacities.
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Back under CMHT for the first time in 4 years. Terrified of them but too unwell to self-manage. Should be admitted to a crisis bed tomorrow. Wish me luck 🤞

Coroner calls for government to take ownership of suicide risk from poisonous substance An inquest into the death of Hannah Aitken has found that she died at her supported living accommodation for people with autism taking a poisonous substance which she ordered online.

She’s from my area and was the same age as Fern when she died, as well, so this one hits close to home. And family represented by our solicitor! Caleb is fabulous.

All my love to her family and her friends. Just an awful situation all round.

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Really saddened to hear about Hannah Aitken’s death. From the info provided I’m pretty certain it’s what my sister used in the same way. Yet another PFD for the same substance, yet more reluctance from public bodies to do anything about it, just as we experienced. And yet another autistic girl lost.

Happy birthday to me!
Spending the day by the log fire and going out to unlimited kbbq in the evening.
I've been in Tuscany all week (I found Florence overrated but more rural Italy incredible) so it's great to be home.
Brought home some lovely olive oil and balsamic vinegar!
Bliss.

In fact, I believe Wallace himself was a victim of CSA.

These are the things you take to rehabilitative therapy and probation reports, not what you use to defend someone online.

But regardless of all of this, his behaviour went unchecked. That's rape culture, not autism. Simple as.

Autistic people are significantly more likely to be victims of sexual offences than they are perpetrators.

Wallace was in a position of power, with lower support needs - if he is autistic at all. He is really not the group we're talking about when we discuss vulnerable sex offenders.

Autism can absolutely affect your vulnerability and leave you displaced, which can both be a contributing factor to criminality. Lack of social understanding can also contribute to sexual offences (and definitely to being caught where others wouldn't be.)

It doesn't make it acceptable.

Disabled friends who are dismayed by the passing of the assisted suicide bill: I am with you.

Your life is important and valuable. Your life matters.
You deserve the help and support that is right for your needs.
Benefits aren’t shameful.
You are not a burden on society.
You are loved.

💗

I don't feel we've heard enough from #disabled people and those who will bear the brunt of the impact of this bill, which IMO has not had anywhere near enough scrutiny.

I've also rarely heard from those who have lived good #EOLC but still want change. I have so many thoughts, for another time.

Men are more likely to be sexually assaulted than they are to be falsely accused. And if a man tells me he has been sexually assaulted then yes; my predisposition is to believe him.

This is not the ‘own’ you think it is. Take your internalised misogyny to therapy and out my comment section x