Minuet💘 edbsky

I guess youre right
Plus maybe if I alternate like this maybe it'll trick my body into thinking I'm not actually starving and I'll keep losing a decent amount of weight on the days that I restrict heavier
Technically 1.5k is more than enough for me to lose weight on but it'd be slow asf

Kill me guys I ate 1.5k calories today ;w;
Yesterday I had like 1.2 k and I was hoping today would be similar.
Im stupid tho and didn't properly calculate the two eggs sandwiches I ate before I ate them because I thought it'd only be like 500-600. It was more like 700, and I drank milk with it

LMAOO
it's the kind where I genuinely fantasize about going back in time to prevent my own birth, creating a time paradox where the universe's only solution is to erase all trace of my existence, then nobody will remember me and nobody will be sad I'm gone
Or just randomly dying, that too

I'm on day 12
I've unlocked a new level of suicidal ideation

:( that's not very nice...
Yelling at you won't make it any better. I'm sorry 🫂

High-key haven't seen this til now, don't know how since I've been in these spaces since 2016 BUT this does very much get in my brain
I've also always like. Thought something similar to this, just not worded this specific way

Does anyone else feel like a failure a little when they take a dump like wow if I'd eaten less this wouldn't be happening to me rn

I've talked w/ a few people.. I just don't wanna talk to my gf abt it bc she always freaks out about stuff like this. Like she means well but I don't like how she reacts :( I'm also just dealing with a lot rn and idk if I'll can go back to staying clean
I appreciate ur kind words though.. thank you

Broke my fast with 680 calories. I ate some chicken fries, drank some tea, and had one string cheese stick. I don't plan on eating anything else today

My girlfriend has stopped taking weed and doesn't even want me having any when she's around cus she's tryna quit. I understand but also I'm not built for this, like at all

I might be developing that shit where you randomly hear ringing
Sometimes I'll randomly hear this quiet ringing for a minute or two, then it goes away
My gf hasn't been around or awake at all every time it's happened tho so I can't get reference on if it's smth from the environment or not

Also erm gonna have to make a new intro because aha!! I broke my almost 2 year clean streak from sh :')Part of me wishes I hadn't done it but that's only bc I dont want my gf to find out
I did it in a place covered by clothes tho and it's not like we have a sex life anyway so I doubt she will notice

I was originally gonna end my fast by now but I haven't.
Been really depressed today . I don't really see a point to eating. Or anything, really..
I just wish I were dead.

Noice
I ended up not doing an omad but I plan on doing one tomorrow

Alright I ate a kids quesadilla from work so my total intake is around 900. Starting another 24 hour fast

Actually I might end up eating less than 620 for this meal, I made too many noodles so I might throw some away
Since I'm prolly gonna be doing that I'm not gonna be doing an omad, Im gonna eat my employee meal at work (I've pre planned what it is, it'll only be 350) so that's fine ig

Breaking my fast with some buttered noodles and juice. About 620 calories

Haven't broken my fast yet but Im making food right now. 25 hours 20 minutes
Im thinking about doing an omad today but idk

Valid

OH MY GODDDD GOALS
I will remember

Oh wowww :0 my longest fast was only 65 hours so you're beating my record 😩
What's your longest?

*chugs my coke zero faster*

I love when this happens
Especially when I anticipate shtting a lottt so I weigh myself before and after
It's like wow I just magically lost 3 pounds, crazy, euphoric even

This was earlier so u prolly already went but absolutely
I see people going to the store like this lol, theres nothing wrong with it. Ngl I often go out in fluffy pj's because most pants make me itchyyyy

That sounds awful 😩
But also drop the name now or else /nsrs

LMAOO like this is your omad again??
Safe food moment

You too <3

Fasting again cus I need to get back on track
Idk if I'll be able to stick to it, not the fast but in general I guess. I've been having a really rough time mentally lately
I'm gonna try my best. This fast won't be hard though

UGHHHH MY CAT NEEDS ME AND MY GF NEEDS ME AND MY BESTIE NEEDS ME UGHHH BUT I WANNA DIE GANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!