Wriggle McBiggle

Omg

We're going to be in movement for the rest of our lives, there's a world to win & so much between us and freedom. How do we make struggle sustainable? So ask yourself, what is the best use of my skills and resources. Limit yourself to that work, because you can't be everywhere.

It’s so good. Co-sign this rec.

Welp.

hm.

Not the time to politicize tragedy,
thoughts and prayers?

This is how we’re supposed to do it, right?

Blues, greens, and yellows in a snuggly tangle of yarn

Guys, I’m doing my best.
This little crochet project is so cuddly and cute.

So good.

Making a blanket with cheap acrylic yarn, working on knits and purls. By the end of this project, I’ll figure out how to use two needles while keeping tension on the yarn in an efficient way. But this blanket is going to be an ugly “good try” mess.

I’m learning to knit.

This year, I got a therapist, quit smoking, and did all the preventative health screenings and scans I’ve been putting off.

Self-care, hardcore version

I *will* out-live my enemies

Nope.

I think I’m officially an ex-smoker

Like, 40 days (and 40 nights) of no smoking feels kinda Biblical-ish-level “quit status”

Also

I’m officially “going to therapy” as of today, so that’s big news

How was your week?

I have not smoked a cigarette in 4 weeks.
Pretty proud of myself
it took a mini stroke and the incidental discovery of an unruptured aneurysm in my skull to move the needle, but still pretty proud of myself

suck it up, buttercup

I quit smoking 24 days ago and I’m feeling really good about my choices right now.
Please clap.
I need the dopamine hit

This seems appropriate after that answer from the Secretary.

YouTube video by DepecheModeVEVO Depeche Mode - Everything Counts (Official Music Video)

Everything Counts
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Goddammit, I will do laundry today because future me will need (and deserves to have) clean underpants and that is an actionable thing I can do now to remind her that I love her and she is cared for.
Even if the world is a shitshow, she will at least have clean clothes.

Also, very funny. Often dark. But extremely humane, if that makes sense

KV Jr never failed to see humanity with a clear eye

Thanks, lady.
gonna posse up, have a circle of support surround me, so I don't have to do it alone. That's going to be key for me...bc I'm a hardhead, I occasionally require a loving kick in the ass

Ty for the encouragement (and I’m so sorry you and your mom are going through this. So hard.) Hugs.
I’m going to have support and help to do what I gotta do, but just having some feelings. Relief and gratitude for sure, but also some grief and “overwhelm”…fear. All the stuff.

a baby is laying on the ground in a pile of leaves with the words `` i dont wanna '' . Alt: a baby is laying on the ground in pink parka having a tantrum in a pile of leaves, with the words `` i dont wanna '' .

Super grateful for all of that. But I woke up this morning with a little resentment and self-pity, because having the chance to make changes means I have to actually make changes.
And that is going to be hard.
Like, really hard.

Lucky to have an opportunity to address whatever’s causing it and (hopefully) keep it from happening again, or at least knowing if a part of my body just stops working out of nowhere again that it’s an emergency, not a one-off little weirdsie.

So…I’m “fine” now, but it was scary to suddenly go blind in one eye out of the blue. Lots of follow-up to come.
But at least it happened when I was home, chillin’, and not at work in the middle of the day and very likely to blow it off. Lucky to have insurance, lucky it wasn’t worse, he was home…

Working on taking all of my pto this year. Been at the job long enough that I get 25 days of vacation, plus the week we shut down for Xmas/ny.
Took the week off for my dude’s birthday and he really liked that.
Spent his actual bday in the ER because, turns out, I had a T.I.A./mini-stroke.

O M G
the tiny little beauty mark…I’m gonna cry
I love him so much

I love my guy, he’s feeling loved, but I tell him I want him to love himself too. And now he’s mad at me.
It’s fine, I’m annoying him. I went downstairs to gather myself, going back upstairs to love on him again softer this time. We’re gonna cuddle. Maybe fuck. I’m good with it either way.

I had to pause it for a sec to say thanks, it is giving, going it back to it now

I’m tiny, but I’m also a lady who knows how the the weather is down here