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The ads on Duolingo that say “get super to learn faster”

My thoughts: most of the time I spend waiting on this app is for the ads after literally every two minute lesson.

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There’s something ironic about a website called disconnect.blog being offline and disconnected and offline lol

I’m a foster kid. I don’t have actual family aside from my kids. So I make an effort to show them as close to a family as I can build.

I need to start jumping on these phony trends. Get a water based cookbook self-published by tomorrow. Hit tiktok running

It’s soup and they’re calling it something else. Why are we broken as a society?

I love riling people up with opinions

I wonder if it works now

Just finished Jay Rubin’s translation of End of the World & Hard Boilrd Wonderland by Haruki Murakami 4/5

Such a lonely and tired ride. I don’t know if it’s the point in my life that I’m at or if we’re all this tired, but I connected with the protagonist(s?) just on his (their?) exhaustion alone

Kingdom Come 2 is an amazing game but my best game purchase of 2025 so far has been Victoria 3

I swear, these modern games are so unfocused that they all feel the same

Europa Universalis 5 announcement more exciting to me than GTA 6

I spent my whole adulthood wishing I could be the adult who genuinely gets upset about anime but I can’t bring myself to do it

In other news, I finally got a copy of Mark Z. Danielewski’s House of Leaves and it is such an intimidating book

I saw somebody got an early copy of @lordgrimdark.bsky.social’s The Devils at a bookstore and I’m so very jealous

I just checked out Fable and StoryGraph and it was the same thing. Goodreads isn’t better than those two apps, but at least it feeds me books I’ll actually read.

One of the downsides of a lot of the book / reading apps is that they’re mostly aimed towards a female demographic.

If the algorithm is working, why am I being fed romance incessantly?

My current read is Haruki Murakami. I’m more likely to read about the shape of a woman’s ears than a man’s abs.

Everything is fanfic when you really boil it down

How did I only now just learn that the infinity symbol is just math for “infinite number of solutions” or “0 = 0”?

My brain always likened it to a number or something like that.

I’m studying for my high school degree as an adult, and I’ll just say this about math: linear equations and systems of equations is the sudoku of math. It’s like getting brain scritches.

I feel personally attacked with this one

I was really hoping he’d sit with Jon Stewart.

… I was so worn out and then suddenly things seem to be just fitting.

All these good things just happened in my life all at once…

I have finished reading:

- Berserk Deluxe Vol 1, by Kentaro Miura
- Grit, by Angela Duckworth
- Influence, by Robert Cialdini
- The Obstacle is the Way, by Ryan Holiday

Since deleting Facebook two weeks ago.

I’m actually quite impressed.

I also write poetry sometimes so I’ll post it here

I’ve read somewhere
These pills
Take away what it means to be human
And I think there’s something to that

Tomorrow,
I take them again,
Drowning out the fire that used to guide me,
While Logic just laughs.

I’ve struggled to keep calm my whole life
I’ve struggled to keep that fire down
I’ve struggled to maintain healthy relationships
Without burning them into the ground

Now I’ve found my calm
But my hearts struggling to get out
My brain tells me that somethings wrong
And fills my heart with doubt

I’ve never wanted to want so badly
I’ve never yearned to yearn
But it’s better to want than have not
It’s better to have bridges than to burn

Lost between a tablet and a pill
The antipsychotics feeding on their kill
My heart, just sitting there, so unaware,
Just disconnected from the thrill

Ngl I prefer it as a car than a truck