cloquirk

haven't cum in 24 days, which i'm like 99.99% sure is my longest stint of orgasm denial ever 😵‍💫🫠

there were like 5 things i wanted to do when i got home from work and now that i'm here i'm too tired to do any of them

you know it's the dark months when it's 7 PM and i'm in bed

Please wear a mask when you can. Even if you don't always, even if it's not the best mask, even if you didn't this morning and you'd feel silly if you did now... any amount of masking is better than none. Nobody is perfect, we're all doing our best, please mask and protect yourself and everyone ❤️

The thing is that submissives — far from being cutesified little sweethearts they're depicted as — are actually terrifying, empty black holes that demand you become worse, either consciously, or because their emptiness compells them to, *and that's really hot*!!!

so fucking dollbrained today

ok but what if i did a dollification literature review

i sometimes find myself bristling when i hear doll play described as roleplay, even though i do think that's a totally valid way to describe a lot of it. but like, for me, i don't at all consider being a doll roleplay--it is part of my identity. i'm not pretending to be a doll, it is what i AM.

i've noticed there's a real lack of educational material about dollification/doll play. i would love to see more of that.

"No longer did girls have to be told to be gentle, they could just relax and have fun...and they did."

listening to a podcast about the history of dolls (because of course i am) and apparently in the early days of barbie, mattel's QA process involved putting doll's through what they actually called a "torture chamber" to make sure they could hold up to rough play.

!!!

don't mind me, just sharing unhinged wrestling slash fic concepts in the polycule group chat at 8 AM.

Enemies Darksucker Giant worms Giant(s) with clubs who came to conquer Drangleic.

my most trusted mutuals:

dolllllllllll

it was wild to learn in my goddamn 30's that this is not, in fact, how most people experience attraction, and that when people say they're attracted to someone, they're typically describing a degree of sexual arousal or desire derived from physical appearance. i did not realize this!!

like listen, i appreciate hotness, don't get me wrong--i too enjoy looking at attractive people! i've just never in my whole life gotten horny about it lmao

it's actually so wild to me that most people get sexually turned on by the sight of naked bodies they find hot. i could quite literally never. 😅

missing my pup. if you have a pet, take a moment to give them some extra love today.

very sexy of me to be an object, tbh

A zoomed in picture of part of the takis logo, showing that the 'i' is dotted with a spiral

if you're wondering about my general state of mind, let's just say i just noticed something about the takis logo for the first time

doll thoughts!!!!!! doll doll DOLL

just saw someone talk about failing nnn and my first thought was "idk how so many people do that, i would never cum without permission" and then i remembered most people actually don't need permission to cum, help help help i'm so fucking cooked

"are you doing NNN?" i have literally no idea, i am not privy to that information, all i know is it's november 6th and i haven't had an orgasm in 16 days (but who's counting?????????!)

i haven't been properly horny in legit a couple years at this point thanks to birth control and it feels really nice to get to experience that again, but ALSO i am out of practice at both being horny and being denied, so i am maybe kinda sorta losing my actual mind over here.

solo hypnosis play is underrated, imo. like, if i have a choice i'd still rather be doing it with someone else because at the end of the day i am a control fetishist, but you can have a lot of trancey fun on your own.

i've had one (1) orgasm since september 29th and i am becoming fucking feral, please send help

it's so bad to want these things and it's so shameful to want bad things and it's so hot to be ashamed of wanting bad things

thinking about ego death and being so deeply hypnotized that my mind breaks permanently and other very very normal things to want