reikya 🕊️

officially 2 months in recovery from sh! still feels bittersweet considering I had two years, but I’m managing.

I am doing okay on my halloween depression, I think iirc (anything trauma related is so hazy) I usually cry the night before and then am ok day of

i have officially hit my pre-Halloween uncontrollable crying phase. it’s a really painful reminder of a trauma anniversary and it always rips my heart out each year.

I’m snuggling my favorite plush and talking to God and breathing. it’s always so raw, even though it’s been 14 years

thank you!!

it’s simply the best way to be

also! I took my pathophys midterm and only missed one! I only lost .75 of a point so almost perfect! all my studying paid off :)

thank you!!!

thank you!!! I intend to and will share them here too for our friends 🥰

thank you sierra!!!

finally started my meds again yesterday and fuck, I was soooo insanely nauseous all night

ty ty ty!!! I’m trying to celebrate the small goals so I don’t feel so sad about losing 2 years of progress

officially hit 50 days in sh recovery, and the time before this I had relapsed on day 49 so I’m making progress :)

ILY TOOOOO 💖❤️💓❤️❤️❤️💘🩷💖🩷💝

(and tbh hot people in general) but lips! hair! fit! aura! I’m floored. someone else said bratz doll but it’s really serving!!! thank you for being gorgeous and blessing my timeline

I love women!!!!

crazy that with long-term ana or malnutrition, your cells think you’re going to die so they just shrink themselves and eliminate mitochondria, thus causing chronic fatigue. only good news is that if you recover, the body can sometimes bring them back and become able to meet energy demands again

been so depressed the past few days but it’s a weird, under the surface kind of crying for no apparent reason type.

@ my student moots in the US: don’t forget to apply for FAFSA! it’s open now :)

midterms are on monday and tuesday this week and I know I’m pretty prepared but I’m just so nervous

fuck. I just had such an insanely horrible adrenaline crash. I literally feel exhausted, alongside the other symptoms. I’m fighting for my life in this bed tonight

this week is going to be so exhausting, and then midterms are next monday and tuesday

and it will! you’re fueling your cells to keep up the good work! and helping them keep reinforcements on the way!

sometimes it’s not as hard for a friend to do our tasks! it doesn’t overwhelm them as much! I have been on the receiving end and the giving end and it worked out well both times. you’ve got a great friend

i forgot to update but I did survive clinical. It threw me into an insane depression with some of the shit I saw, but I’m doing okay.

I’m feeling really bloated and having waves of nausea and idk if it’s anxiety or my dinner and it’s so annoying. I’m trying to sleep 😭

that’s so scary gia! I’m glad you listened to your intuition

I have my first clinical tomorrow and I’m so nervous omg

thank youuuu

guys I didn’t relapse last night and it was nothing short of a miracle. 31 days!

I’m bordering relapse again (can’t seem to make it stick more than 4 weeks) and I’m sobbing my fucking eyes out. why did I have to be so sensitive in this life? my heart is crushing the shit out of me from the inside