Morothar ☿

Had a nice Halloween party at the office. I had my own little corner where I offered tarot readings! 🔮
I used cheat sheets, since I am not that experienced and it was my first time offering something like this. It went great!!! What a confidence builder!

And then I hit a metaphorical wall, stumbled, fell, and can't get up. Just like that, I'm spent for the day. I wish I would have any clue why today went like this... I'll analyze it later or tomorrow. Thinking is uncomfortably hard right now...
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The day started quite fine for a monday. But several hours into the workday I felt motivation dropping, my executive function running out of steam. I hoped for the lunch break would fix it... But after the break I felt like running on fumes...
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If you show the villains pain and struggles, you need to also show more of what their actions mean for the countless victims. If you give your cardboard villains more depth then you need to make the victims also less flat and faceless.

I don't care for either of them, the sequels were a mess. That people want Kylo, well, in my opinion it's a broader thing. When Hollywood understood that villains could use more depth and realism, too many failed to show how horribly evil they still are.

Grow a pair and HEX the Patriarchy.

Would I know if this was just part of a slow descent into psychosis or other mental deterioration? Am I losing it while trying to expand my own understanding, trying to personally grow, trying explore myself?
#witchcraft #occultism #spirituality

I don't know much about deities, angels, demons, spirits, etc., I just accepted that they possible exist outside of our reality.
Getting reached out to and communicated with by one of them ( #Lilith) was unexpected and I am still trying to wrap my head around it. Am I just going crazy?

Black autistic adults especially those who were late-diagnosed deserve to be heard too.
Our stories aren’t less valid just because they don’t match the “typical” autism narrative.
We exist, we’re here, and we matter

Trans Frau erhält wegen Sex mit transfeindlichem Mann Haftstrafe Eine trans Frau in England erzählte ihrem Freund erst nach sexuellen Kontakten von ihrer Transidentität. Er zeigte sie an. Nun muss sie deswegen fast zwei Jahre in ein Männergefängnis. (Politik - Euro...

In England kommt eine trans Frau jetzt ins Gefängnis, für 21 Monate. Ihr Verbrechen? Sie war zu überzeugend eine Frau und ein Mann fand sie attraktiv. Nach ihrem Outing ihm gegenüber verklagte er sie. Der Hass auf queere Menschen wird bereits von der Justiz ausgeübt.
www.queer.de/detail.php?a...

Grieving for the woman I never got to be. I started to hide my gender from myself as a young child, society kept telling me I was a boy and my autistic brain accepted that I had to be one to be accepted. I feel like I society stole my puberty, my Twenties, my Thirties, and I'll never get those back.

I realized I was nonbinary and transfeminine 6 years ago, started transitioning 5 years ago...
And only now my autistic brain is finally letting go of some parts of my "gender mask", revealing parts that I hid from even myself for nearly 40 years!
It's so incredibly liberating!!!

Ist eben der gleiche Bullshit wie beim nordischen Modell. Weil ja alle Sexworker Frauen und Opfer sind und alle Kunden böse Tätermänner, die Frauen hassen und diese als Objekte kaufen. Ganz fürchterlicher Mist und entgegen jeder Realität...

Heute wieder "Freiersohn" als vermeintlich feministische Alternative zu "Huhrensohn" gelesen...
Wie kommt man denn auf die Idee, dass die Verunglimpfung unserer Kunden irgendwas für uns tun würde?!
Beides schadet und verletzt einfach nur. Lass es.

#respectsexworkers

If I shaved my chin beard, I could pass as a woman... I'm nonbinary... But no matter how femme my clothes and prominent my boobs, they take me as a guy the second they see a beard on my face...
Passing as a woman seems tempting and might be less exhausting.

It's the last day of my vacation, if you wondered about me doing this on a Tuesday morning.

CN: Cannabis usage
I've only been (intentionally) high on HHC and 10-OH-HHCP so far. First time going for actual THC. I'm curious. Here comes the buzz... 😶‍🌫️

When I was young, computers and video games and being online was great to shut out the world that stressed me. But in the last 10-15 years, the world that stresses me out also went online, amplified. In addtion, everything online became enshittified. I want to flee!

"Hier zählen das Wort und beste Argument" ist ja wohl ein Märchen. Es zählt ständiges & unerlässliches Wiederholen, es zählen Diskursverschiebungen, das Normalisieren rechter Ausreden & Rechtfertigungen für Menschenhass. Minderheiten sollen "nicht so laut" sein, während ihr Worte ohne Taten macht.

Soooo, Aleister Effing Crowley (and other magick lovers) really enjoyed gooning and edging and things like that. And I think that's cool!
(This is of course over-simplified and not to be taken too serious.)
Source (sort of): en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eroto-c...

Having trouble sleeping? Have you considered your enemies are nearby?

Normalize saying you need to cogitate on a topic before having an answer / solution / decision!
Normalize treating cogitation as an important life-skill just like meditation! (They are quite similar in my opinion.)

I've realized this before, but it is a pill that's really hard to swallow. It's hard to not scream online from the top of my lungs, it's hard to not involve myself in online battles when I see the hate and the pain and the suffering. But I'd just burn myself out while changing almost nothing...

"Choose your battles"...
I realize, for me it is actually "Choose your battlefields". In my case that means that I need to remind myself, that online, social networks, are not my battlefield. I'm not online to fight hate, being in those battles is an incredible inefficient use of my energy.

Yesterday was a very not-great day for me. Just now I was shuffling one of my #tarot decks just to do something with my fingers. A card falls out (which next to never happens for me), Queen of Cups. Make of it what you want... I'll take it as advice and try to follow it.

Thank you for your input. Using "magic user", despite being correct, feels weird, because of it being role playing lingo. My mind instantly goes back to late 80s computer RPGs character creation screen (made by TSR / SSI). Half-Elf, Thief/Cleric/Magic-User. Sorry, getting carried away here...

Finding the right labels for oneself is hard. Am I a (chaos) magician? A sorceress? A witch? An enchantress? And what even are the differences? Is there an umbrella term? At least I'd love to have something to use so that people could have a vague idea about that side of me when I say "I'm a [XYZ]".

Even if I wanted, I couldn't post details about my encounter with Lilith today. Too sexual and intimate for my SFW accounts, too spiritual and deep for my NSFW accounts.

I planned to just chill today. I pondered vaping some weed (which I rarely do). "No, we have work today! Spiritual work that requires *you* to be clear-minded!"
Up until today I never worked with gods, nor did I really care for that... I did not expect one to initiate contact and reach out to me!

Okay, I don't want to jinx it, but I see signs that I might be living more and more, leaving survival mode and its constant pressure behind (in baby steps)...
It's great (and a tiny bit scary)!