ian 🇳🇿🏳️‍🌈

it gets better because we make it better

Genuinely the most beautiful "vase„ I've ever seen. wow 😍

Guys. I'm actually considering changing my name to Dema. "ian" just doesn't cut it anymore. I think it's about time !!!

"I hate Supernatural!" I shout into the void as I go to press play on whatever pirating website I could find the show on. 💔

COTD *Release* The past is GONE. Please stop torturing yourself (and possibly others) with what ifs and yearnings for lost opportunities. Your life is happening now, are you fully in this moment? Are you happy? You deserve to be. #cardoftheday

COTD *Release* The past is GONE. Please stop torturing yourself (and possibly others) with what ifs and yearnings for lost opportunities. Your life is happening now, are you fully in this moment? Are you happy? You deserve to be.

#cardoftheday

I do really want to post more often :((
but then I think it's my Aquarius placements going, "I don't care!". Cause, like why would anybody be all in my business like that? 🤨

1:11 ✨ :p

Character. I loved the warm timber glow in the old Boot repair and coffee shop. So good to record the ambiance. #photography #sonycamera #christchurchnewzealand #character #timberinterior

:p

Jolene is an orange and white cat. She is sleeping on her side reaching out like a Michael Angelo painting. Simon is a black and white cat cuddling behind her with one arm on her.

How Jolene and Simon have been sleeping while we are in temporary safe housing.

Happy #Caturday.

#cats #CatsOfBluesky #gato

God. I fucking love border collies.

Another thing is that an older man I was serving today pointed out to me that it's apparently an 'unusual' name...
It was not the first time an *older* person has told me this 💀

I've been considering changing my name recently. I picked this one out while I was experimenting with my gender as a younger teenager, and it's just a bit to masculine (and boring) with how I present myself nowadays.

Perhaps this is the universe's way of blocking my way down this path, on my most recent meltdown. Why must I conform to this strict regime......

What happens when I haven't enough photos to sign up with a profile on a dating app... I have THREE recent photographs of myself Hinge!!! Take it or leave it 😤

🌱 Medo Halimy left us a year ago; all with a seed in our hearts. A seed that carries our shared connection to humanity, within its roots. We must continue to water it, encouraging us to grow together as a collective, so his memory and his breath remain alive within us all.

Wait. I thought it started in an hour... I'm already late. I'll get it next time 💀

(PT2) My must reads are:

• Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel
• Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn
• The Third Policeman by Flann O'Brien
• Still Life With Woodpecker by Tom Robbins

:))

(PT1) I want to start reading again. I constantly had my nose in a book when I was a kid, but then I found a new form of escapism... my iPad. 🥸

I'm thinking picking up something I'm already familiar with so I can ease back into that routine would be good. —

no new pictures, where are you at mentally

Preparing to head to my first DND Campaign tonight! I've been putting it off since I've felt a bit embarrassed about embracing my nerdy side... But I seriously need the socialization 😭
Not sure if this is the best place to learn social cues,, lol. But at least I'm getting out there!! I think??..

wow. he looks so sassy here 🤣🤗

When **I** get a job I will renew my Animal Jam Membership...... 😼😼

Update on the beginning of my journey in hospitality & serving training:

The kitchen is my enemy, our hostess is an angel, and I've now booked a psychiatrist appointment to sort some medication for my anxiety.
(It's been a long time coming tbh,, lol))

he's watching Noah Baumbach's seminal mumblecore classic "Frances Ha" (2012)

✧ The Emerald Star ✧

Depending on the different varieties, this could either be the best or worst thing for you 🤣

wwiterally me.☝🏼🤓

— I am sure I will likely have a panic attack on the day. At least I'm doing the thing !!! right?? (PT 2)

(PT 1) Going from a complete agoraphobe for 5 years, since I was 15. To have been doing this course in hospitality for a few weeks now, with my first lunch service being on this Wednesday. I am actually so proud of myself! I feel closer to who I'm meant to be, more than ever.
Even though —