transgender ischemic attack

a silly fantasy i seem incapable of moving on from though

silly fantasy

i had a lucid dream where i was in high school again but i was a girl and confident and idk i just wanted to see how it felt but at a certain point i was just sad that i didn’t really have that so i cut the dream short and then was briefly paralyzed as i tried to wake up

no no my clocky angles are face angle 3/8ths, face angle 1/5th, camera vertical angle absolute value in excess of 20 degrees, many focal lengths, head angle above 90 degrees,

consider: i don’t post my clocky angles

clocky from every angle except straight on

i often wonder what i would have been like if i was born cis. who would she have been. would she have had it easier? or harder? would i have been happier? how much of my struggle over the years has been because of being trans?

why did alex hirsch follow me on insta lmao

torturing myself with twitter men as my knives

(taking notes) so hsts is passoid is youngshit, and agp is gigahon is NGMI?

sorry if you have explained it before my memory sucks

but what does it stand for

i don’t even know what hsts means tbh

the amount of internalized transphobia i have is slightly insane

am i a youngshit passoid if i transitioned at 19

what the fuck are you talking about

not really sure what the ideal solution here is tbh

my biggest flaw besides my personality

oooo i want to get my chin shaved down so bad holy fuck

that’s often my idea too and i think that’s kinda how i’m doing things on main rn like just not ever really specifying it just means i can’t discuss trans stuff or join in conversations about it :/

sbuhghg

actually i forgot how small accounts are fun i can just say whatever

of course i could simply be public about it most people do already assume and sometimes i wonder if i’m just being a clown pretending i can go stealth ill always be clockable

i really do wish people would stop assuming i’m trans when they dm/reply to me bc like. clocking people who have not said they are trans is rude!! assuming is rude!! and it makes it hard to reply or answer

i want trans community but am too scared to break stealth and talk about it publicly 😂😂😂 fuck

transgender ischemic episode

i think it’s actually impossible for 90% of doctors to treat trans people like normal people with a very normal medical situation. like. if they aren’t overtly aggressive they are just terrified and say sorry i can’t do anything to do with that

transphobia? at MY doctor’s appointment? more likely than you think

just. wow. ok

went in for a breast cancer screening and discovered while i was there that my doctor tried to diagnose me with gynecomastia. which is “appearance of breasts on males”. the techs at the breast health center were like yea. sorry. this is stupid.