rudehombre

If your primary display of your “morals” is grifting I feel like that says enough about the “morals”

I’ve seen auroras twice now from my rooftop in St. Paul and ooooo I just love that so much

luffy from one piece says " me ? i 'm a rubber man " in front of a building ALT: luffy from one piece says " me ? i 'm a rubber man " in front of a building

sitting down to actually look at the hypermobility EDS criteria and... ah haha... oh

Ashnikko's new album is hitting me right in the autism bisexual weirdo self in the most magical way

omg I love it!!!

The way I want ashnikko to boss me around.. whew
Respectfully

got some poppi soda on clearance and it's bad! The marketing is stupid and it makes me want either a real soda or kombucha. And the stevia makes it taste off.

New cables installed, ours was damaged, replaced with a temp above ground cable, it worked fine, crew came to bury it, damaged again
fuck all the way off I work from home I need the service that I pay for

xfinity stop damaging our fiber internet cable challege: impossible

YES YES YES YES

Tylenol better sue the orange man and his regime for false medical claims or some shit

YES YES YES

I have so many different orb weaver spiders in my back yard and I love them all 😭😭😭😭

Putting trim up on my garage :') This has been such a long process :')

My partner: changes shirts a minimum of 3 times a day if it’s hot and he gets sweaty
Me: guess it’s a stinky dirty day I’ll figure it out later

I wish I could google where I put random tools in my house cause what the fuck where is my framing hammer 😭😭😭

Just sitting in my backyard observing my hard work on the garage and all the trees and trash I’ve cleared out vibing and reflecting and feeling so nice

Lots of complex feelings wrapped up into abandonment issues relating to undiagnosed/untreated autism etc etc

I was never good at making/holding onto friends and after a lot of reflection over the years 1. I was definitely not doing a great job of it and 2. I have come to love my very very small social life cause I’m so busy following my own joy

My pets make me happy. Doing crafts makes me happy. Watching fun shows makes me happy. Someone dying? Nahhh. Not happiness. Weird thing to make you happy.

Take a step away from the "other" person and examine YOURSELF and deconstruct what makes you happy and why someone's death would also fall into that list.

But face to face, human to human, thinking "I am going to end you and be HAPPY about it" is deeply unsettling. Similar feelings to holding a grudge- that feeling is affecting YOU as well as the subject of your "glee". It certainly can't be good for your skin.

I definitely had to deconstruct being "glad" if/when someone dies. The entitlement to taking someone else's life... is just not the right answer. Relief upon someone's passing because they won't spread hateful rhetoric anymore? Sure.

It's so funny experiencing my learning style in action - I need to learn and gain confidence by doing (well... who doesn't) but it's so satisfying to gain confidence and it applies to the other parts of this project as a bonus

finally got the construction dumpster picked up and the tree stumps trimmed near my garage and I feel so capable omg

I cannot curl a 25 pound weight but somehow I make do with chopping wood and carrying full 4x8 sheets of OSB
These noodle arms get shit done

holy shit getting the swing just right using a maul and splitting wood feels so good I totally understand lumberjacks now

My "solution" is to research research research then just gung-ho start a portion of it and then continue to research as I'm doing something in chunks but like... I can't just come up with THE solid plan of action I can only do it in parts or I get too overwhelmed

I have so much information in my brain about siding, water mitigation, trim, nail sizes, window installation, door jambs etc etc etc IT'S TOO FULL IT'S SO MUCH

My brain is not made for planning multiple step projects jfc I really need to get assessed and help for ADHD