Daydreamin Fool

Just stood in the kitchen knowing I came there to do something but unable to focus to remember what I had wanted to do.

Take the medications that let me focus.

That’s what I needed to do.

Related: I’m posting this so that by the time I get to the kitchen I can look and remember what I’m doing.

😘😘

18 hour day. Work again in 6 hours. Finally sat down for the first time after 14 hours. Have barely eaten anything. Finally close my eyes at midnight. 12:03 toddler starts crying in bed because new teeth suck. Ughh. Fingers crossed she is able to sleep and isn’t awake 2+ hours sobbing again tonight.

That’s so frustrating - ugh!

Ugh - so horrible. There must be something in the air - for the last week I have been super struggling with sleep too - which makes me exhausted…and more frustrated that it’s so hard to sleep. Ugh.

I understand my friends desire with wanting to shield her kid from the pain that can come come from being your authentic self in a world that doesn’t always do a good enough job of acceptance or understanding - and maybe I’m naive…but I can’t imagine anyone not loving her kid no matter what. Sigh.

If it’s this difficult for her to talk to her very easy going family (who I personally would never even question them taking it in as much stride as you can) about her child’s transition…I can’t imagine how difficult it is for those who don’t have open or accepting families.

One of my best friends has a child (okay, an adult they birthed - I dunno how they’re almost 19) who is transitioning and while I understand the fear and hesitation to tell people…it’s so weird to me how terrified she is of telling her family who are very loving, open, accepting people.

How the hell did I manage to get into a relationship with someone who moves at a glacial pace.

I just don’t understand how he’s so painfully slow to do ANYTHING. And the slightest bit of rushing him when he’s ALREADY LATE is annoying AF.

Nothing like having a full out hysterical sobbing and crying meltdown to make you remember to order refills of your antidepressants.

Also: I recognize how very very messed up this is. Alas always strikes me as odd and I wonder sometimes if I miss other peoples semi-public meltdowns..?

My superpower is being able to cry in the presence of others without them having any idea.

I can have tears streaming down my face. Snot from my nose. Carrying on a normal convos bn silent sobs and as long as they aren’t looking directly at me they have no idea.

Long hair works well for this.

The only places I would assume would have them are in BC where there could be tsunamis or near nuclear plants? When I was little if there was ever anything it would cut into your radio or TV - but never anything like a siren

I don’t know of any places here that have emergency alerts even in bigger cities…but would think there would be some places that have them? Maybe not as much a Canadian thing? But even bigger places I’ve visited I’ve never experienced a test of any of them.

Winter: Dark blue
Spring: Vibrant yellow
Summer: Bright Green
Fall: Vivid Orange

We don’t have anything like that here (that I’ve ever known of or experienced). Every so often we have a phone test where they ping every phone with an emergency alert at the same time - but that’s about it. But I also live in rural cottage country.

For weeks I have been complaining about being SO exhausted all day every day.

Last night realized one of the meds I’ve been on for pain that I’ve been considering stopping bc the pain is getting so much better causes drowsiness.

Didn’t take it this morning…and…not dragging my ass exhausted. 🤦‍♀️

How the hell do people I went to highschool with have kids in university, kids in their 20’s and/or are celebrating 20th wedding anniversaries?!

I’ll just be over here with my 1yo living in sin never having been married.

Two months ago my dad had to put his dog down. Last week my SIL’s dog kept having seizures and had to be put down. This week my moms cat (who use to be my cat and then she decided she loved my mom more) needs to be put down.

Enough already universe.

My 1yo understands this in her soul. She would (and sometimes does?) eat guac daily. I’m sorry it’s a Mondayish Monday!

Takes a long time and need to balance rest/movement/exercises so that disc can move back & not press on nerve…luckily not at a point that needs surgery. Just have to be careful as will be more prone to it now & need to strengthen core…try to continue to heal and prevent it from happening again

I’ve been doing Physio/massage for 5 weeks - literally since the moment this started…got on top of it quickly and switched to prescribed meds for pain/inflammation after 2 weeks of the others not doing much…. Ended up in the ER 2x due to symptoms but finally feeling like it’s slowly healing….

Herniated disc pressing on nerve says MRI…weeee!

*pops popcorn and waits for updates*

It’s so much harder than it should be! But man!

That’s what my parents like too!

I don’t think their names have to match as much as they need to match them - haha!

We have Alf (Alfies, Alfred, Alfredo, etc) and Cleo for cats. Then of course Matilda/Mattie. I just don’t know. Think I just need to try one out and see! But so far he’s just pup.

Ohhh! That’s a good one too!

Golden puppy with blue leash bounding towards camera while smiling and wagging tail

This poor guy still doesn’t have a name. Right now I’m tossing around Ollie, Finn and Theo. But I really have no idea.

Dog doesn’t have a name BUT does take himself for walks. My work here is done….?

Lol - funny!