Finding myself for the umpteenth time this past decade.

Is it a parenting win or fail that “Go the F*ck to Sleep” by Adam Mansbach is officially in the bedtime book rotation for my almost 2 year old?

I’m sleep deprived and probably getting sick, so I’m going to drink 50oz of coffee about it.

Endless wishes ✨

All I’m saying is that I’ve never seen the Hulk and a duck in the same room.

So for today I will try to appreciate the difficulties that come at this stage. Because it won’t last. Babies don’t keep. And one day I’ll miss these tiring early mornings.

One day you won’t stare up at me with those deep blue eyes and want “upease” (up please) all day long. One day I won’t be oscillating between you and my cup of coffee which I somehow manage to always leave in another room.

You toddle around and terrorize Charlotte, drip your milk everywhere, smash your snacks into the furniture, and screech loudly when you feel big feelings. One day you’ll sleep in, at least a little. One day you won’t need to be retrieved from your crib.

These early mornings won’t always happen. The ones where you’re up at 4:45am and ready to party. Where I, blurry eyed and half awake, scurry to the fridge to grab your milk cup and gently come into your room to retrieve you from your crib.

I was today years old when I learned that compliment and complement are two different words.

Today I will accept the things that suit me and let go of the things that don’t. It’s ok to mourn the things I let go, just as much as it is ok for me to celebrate the joys that today brings. Joy and sorrow can coexist.

The worst catastrophes of history are caused by men who are malevolent, ignorant, and have exceptional wills.

March 2025 💚

But why do I feel shame? When you volunteer time/money/resources to those in need, you’re praised and admired. So why do I feel so much guilt and shame when I accept that same help when I need it?? 3/3

Part of me wanted to run up and give them a big hug and build some sort of camaraderie, and then the other part of me immediately felt the weight of shame that comes from a history of financial insecurity. So I sat in my car and waited for them to go inside first… 2/3

I recognized my neighbor at the food bank today. I knew I had seen their face before but didn’t place them until I had driven back home and saw them unloading in the parking lot. 1/3

A pan of lasagna with a baguette sitting on top and then a plate of cookies in front. There is a paper heart that reads “lots of love Colby, Becca, and Julia.”

Thank you to @lasagnalove.bsky.social. I can’t express how much this means to me..

An average size woman’s hand holding a giant strawberry.

My carton of strawberries is full of GMOs this week.

The best part of being an adult is that you can bake cookies whenever you want. The worst part of being an adult is that you can eat as many cookies as you want.

The Toddler realized that I have eyebrows and eyelashes for the first time today. It would have been much cuter except for the fact that it was 4:27am and only one of us was thrilled to be awake.

Is it weird that I have to schedule my sadness?

Having someone to body double with would be fantastic right now.

Trying to find the motivation to get out of bed today.

I work in an industry where I know what type of vehicle my customers drive AND I have some level of autonomy of choosing my customers/providing them with a service. Looks like all folks with Teslas are going to have to find this service elsewhere. ✌🏻

I have been nap trapped for THREE hours and I have to pee so bad.

87% of parenting a toddler is just encouraging them through a poop.

I’m (re)listening to a podcast episode from 2017 and the hosts bring up the terrors of DT’s first term and I keep screaming “IT GETS WORSE.”

I would like a butthole laser… how do I get on their list?

Deactivated my twitter not only due to *waves hands wildly* but also because it’s time to move on to better things. I’d like to find my community here or through another similar app.

Thing I’ve said/done to make my toddler cry today:
1. Ask if he wants milk
2. Not give him milk when he told me no
3. Smile at him
4. Sit next to him
5. Make a silly face when he looks at me
6. Not follow him into another room immediately
7. Ask what’s wrong
8. Pick him up
9. Put him down