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this girlie here is trying not to crash out bc damn bro AHHAHA

fuckass tablet dying on me is insane but at the same fucking time I know i have an android tablet i can draw on but the quality is not the samee

Getting in this site just gives me bad memories but i still want to interact with other oomfs who left the other site to here

My heart is warm when someone says they like my art. I know I draw fast and all and I know I can still improve. But im happy people like it enough to comm me

Especially in my country idk.

I just think it's sad and i feel bad a friend i know has to sell her body for money.

Like I understand and I don't hold it against her but sex work isn't kind a lot of the time and I think I'm more worried for her.

i think it's kinda hard to find an artist who makes spicy + tender art LASKJDDKLAS i just really love the idea of vanilla sex bc i have certain ships that i couldn't see go do dirty talk ALKSDJLKA

sometimes i feel like deleting everything and just be with my small circle of friends to talk about the things i like without being afraid

at this point I may as well be nonsharing not bc other ships make me uncomfy aside from a particular one but because im afraid of this happening

I think it's not normal when someone's username is making me super anxious

of course it's not normal but then again I basically shrunk myself bc i'm afraid bc I dont know how to defend myself.

Even if those ideas are my own, I still question it.

oh dawg i did this to myself I shouldn't have clicked the muted post AHAHHA

i hate it here lmao

I have friends who love me and that makes me happy actually

Oh it kinda makes me happy that there are people who want to see me and buy things from me

That makes me a lil hopeful

Its nice my friend and i are talkig like normal again 😭

I was worried he was still a bit sad but im glad we settled it earlier and i was able to finish his comm hahaha 🥹

And when a part of that routine breaks, they stress out

Dawg

I think its nice that im distancing myself bc I don't really want to be part of this friend's routine. Already told them before that we can't always be there for them but they forget

Idk why they feel entitled of mine and another friend's attention.

I couldnt even reply to a lot of ppl bro. Im literally cramming

I shouldn't be part of someone's routine but here we are

Dawg i can't do this fr

Im probably making excuses rn this js so ass i shouldnt iverthink i already organized the comms i need to do in a specific order but i still feel bad and im overthinking i hate overthinking

I will go into a corner and cry but also i shouldnt bc this will pass but i dont want to look like im doing hus comm bc he expressed his disappointment no bc i have been thinking about hus comm for a while im just fucked with irl

Situation fucked I think im overthinking real bad bc i know it's not my fault my situation is shit but I feel like I've been bad but I shouldnt and I should take this well bc I am at fault that I wasnt able to update my friend with his conm

I have thrown up again

This sucks

it's funny how people online worry for me than my own family

hahaha

asking help feels bad
especially that
you've been in this state for so long
it feels embarrassing
shameful
it doesn't feel good

I get problems out of my control on top of that stupid fucking debt under my name. I'm tired

If I hear another "dont let it stress you out/don't think about it" I might actually grab something sharp and stab myself in front of them

Will doing harm upon myself get them to take me seriously, or will it just be for naught if it doesnt change? I am running out of options as I have tried everything, begging to help me because I'm tired.

It feels like everything i do isn't appreciated. I wouldn't say it's all for nothing... but they don't appreciate me for the shit i have to put up with that is very much their fault.

Sometimes I think of ending it all but my friends will get sad

Anxiety bad bc of the loan due date and the calls im receiving from hc that im making more mistakes

Dawg i will cry

My feelings are a bad mess but i will try to be a bit positive today