River doesn't know what to say

Even if a transmasculine person is "good" they will never be good enough, because it is being transmasculine itself that is bad. You will never be enough for those people, or yourself, or, you will dive into toxic masculinity and attack other transmacs.

Everyone, believes that transmasculine people deserve what happens to them, unless they prove themselves worthy, including most transmasc themselves.

So, in the end it's actually besides the point whether or not any given transmasculine person is misogynistic, because you don't have to be good for feminism to be for you. Like with being against death penalty, sure, someone may be guilty, but the death penalty is still wrong.

Transmasculine people by and large, understand that they would not be able to be transmasculine without feminism, and percentage wise, are less misogynistic than cis women, who feminism is understood to be for, as you recall.

People will hate on cis men, but they never say to cis men that they have to prove themselves worthy of feminism, as they do for transmasculine people. It's understood that cis men are just too stupid to understand it's in their own self interest to advocate for it.

Likewise, feminism is for transmasculine people. Full stop. Now, I would like for all people to learn from feminism and not be misogynistic, but that notably, is only a requirement people set for transmacs.

Feminism is for transmasculine people as much as it is for someone with the gender identity of woman. Not more so, not less than. Just as feminism is for any woman, even if she is misogynistic, even if she is a terrible MAGA woman trying to destroy feminism itself, it is still for her.

What I want most for transmasculine people to understand, is that feminism is for you. No ifs, ands or buts. You do not have to earn it, you do not have to prove yourself for it. FEMINISM IS FOR TRANSMASCULINE PEOPLE.

However, it doesn't matter as much what they might have meant to do as what they are doing.

I know people don't want to believe they can plan that well, that they are incompetent, but that also does not preclude that some are very good and patient planners, who, yes, have in fact basically stated this as a tactic.

If they had planned this all out in advance, there would not be a better way to get what they want than push too far, then pull back and say, see? We are the reasonable ones.

People are out there risking their lives and livelihood to protect their neighbors, so the cops and guard are there to "protect" people by stopping them from stopping ICE. This is about making kidnapping people normal.

You can see them setting up all the pieces for this in real time. Trump's "regret", the change from loud and chaotic to efficient and quiet. Bringing in the cops and the National Guard, to protest yes, they don't want another shooting in the street, but not to stop neighbors being kidnapped.

Hate to break it to ya, but abandoning "lesser" men to the wolves is exactly what the patriarchy wants of you.

The guilt is that the transmasculine desire caused the loss of the child. It's kind of incredible how much the show writers only make the transmasculity more apparent than even the book, but I'd say it's because they did want to bring out the gay aspect more clearly.

The grief of motherhood, and the guilt over death is channeled THROUGH the desire to be transformed into a man (to live and yet be dead) the desire of a man as a man. This is how analysis goes wrong, to erase that the monstrosity and sin and guilt to desire to be a man and to desire men.

For transmasculine people, embracing this sort of femininity is being trapped into childhood. The longing to be a man and to desire a man while being a man is central, and the relationship to children, death, and motherhood, is channeled THROUGH that.

Unlike the M3gan revenge doll, who is tied to motherhood in a way that seems to be particularly transfeminine (being the "artificial" caretaker doll), the transmasculine vampire child cannot ever grow up, because it is through transition that transmasculine people can take control of our own lives.

Because in the Ann Rice world, the grief and guilt about motherhood is not separate from the rage of being made into a doll child who can never grow up.

One of the framings of the interview with a Vampire series is that it is about motherhood and about the death of a child, and I don't disagree with that, but that is not separate from the vibrating desire to be a man and be with a man sexually.

But no, denying the very apparent transmasculinity in Ann Rice's work is denying what is obvious, not that transmasculine people are wish casting into it. The secret is that you can evaluate work without making it about the author's identity. ,

One of the things that's interesting about the Anne Rice vampire stories is that they are very transmasculine. Frankly, I was shocked at how strongly it is when I read it because I had assumed I was reading into it.

The vampire, in the Ann Rice vision is beautiful, and is objectified for his beauty, but that beauty is also his monstrosity and his power, but it's a different relationship to it than the revenge doll, such as M3gan.

I haven't seen the Meg3n movies, because being made into a doll basically triggers dysphoria for me , because I have experienced it, but I don't get the charged experience of wanting/not wanting, but I do get that in the form of the vampire. Particularly the Ann Rice vision of it.

Before rewatching Interview with the Vampire (2022), I glimpsed an ad for the second M3gan movie, which I haven't seen, so the juxtaposition of these two horror monsters who contain within revulsion and desire specifically about misogynistic objectification.

The aspect of how we process and relate to our trans mess as trans people, is often through horror and through monstrosity, and that's true across the board, although not for every individual.

I set myself as androgynous, being very mutable in gender presentation and how people see me. I have yet to spend much time in Europe, but I do think I would pass much more readily there than in the US.

As trans people, we process being treated this way differently, and have a different relationship to it and it's not just about gender ID, because whatever that is our gender expression has enormous range and we all exist in different places in wider culture and subcultures with these aspects.

To be seen as, to be a woman, to be feminine, is to experience how you are reduced to an object, to be pretty but only for the eyes of those who have power over you, to be the subject of others desires.

I was thinking about how trans people conceptualize their experiences through art, and how the vampire is particularly relevant for many transmasculine people.