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Hali and I just sang hero’s by Bowie together karaoke and I love this girl

Joe put 4 shots in my drink instead of 2. If I pass away on the skylark porch: sprinkle my ashes at lakeside

Watched as Joe poured me a double *in actuality he prob poured 4 shots in this bitch* Joe is trying to kill me, but he did compliment my hair a ton, and he’s giving me free booze. Love this bitch

Been in a depressive episode and today collin hit me with “before you know it it’ll be winter, and girl, you’re gonna thrive” and that helped a lot actually

Do not under any circumstance cut your hair with a kitchen knife after a few drinks at 3am

Is this like THE esoteric crash out? Like I cannot stop listening to swans and David Bowie. I will tolerate nothing else. It ok tho cuz my bestie can fix it prob for me? I don’t hate it but eek WTF BITCH calm down for the love of god

I UHHH gave myself bangs???

I know way more Denver bands, I truly need to make a list

Can’t believe my fav bartender’s sister is the keyboardist for church fire
Like I’ve been to most of their shows since 2105 and EXCUSEME ANDREW, lovely Andrew, is the BROTHER of my 2nd fav Denver band But 1) heated bones 2) church fire 3) dead gods 4) insipidus 5) pink lady monster

Thank god Robb (brother) is coming to swoop me. Thank god for Robert white

Super sad and spent the last half hour fixing the “crying eyes” but when I went to buy cigs from the liquor store the guy complimented my death grips shirt and we talked a lil so there ya go

YouTube video by Jackson Neil Jandek - Time and Space

Collins coworker came by today and said the jandek poster was cool and was like “omg is the Aztlan theatre still doing shit?” Then he asked me to describe jandek and I couldn’t find the words? Like experimental folk? ?

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I’m able to separate people from music when it comes to romance, but this friend shit hurts like hell still. Like I truly miss them and spent every day with them for years. Not to be too eloquent but it really does suck a big one

“Tim I wish you were born a girl” by of Montreal reminds me of Rae. And I gotta say friend song associations hurt way more than romantic song associations. This is either bc I show romantic partners more music than they show me, so I already have engrained memories for those songs? OR because I’m

Idk if *i* want one, but I want to plan a wedding so badly

Ok cool!!

Still not doing much tonight but dogsitting if you’d still wanna hang out

Your Tears Drop From The Sky Suishou no Fune · Where The Spirits Are · Song · 2006

Me: blasting open.spotify.com/track/4qiVVY...

I’m good, koda and I are having a dance party

Collin is out of town and I’m losing my mind with the house to myself. Realized I talk to myself a lot.

Collin is sending me pics of bugs in his trip lol

since my parents retired my dad has become the 68yr old in crisis man, like “I’m going to fix everything and build a house myself.” My mother has become way more neurotic, and she goes to goodwill probably 3+ times a week. I cannot stop, some of their neuroses and masking addictions have taken over

It’s been 5 hours and I think he can tell that Collin isn’t coming back for a bit. We moved his food upstairs and i don’t speak dog, but I think that’s what tipped him off. He’s been v sad and extra cuddly today
On the plus side koda gets to sleep in my bed the next two days :)

Me too I’m sorry :( if you wanna hang lemme know bc my only plan is to watch tv and maybe get drunk?

My mother has been saying before this family wedding I have to dye my hair my natural color. I keep telling her it’s not that easy and I don’t want to damage it anymore.

My tolerance for heat has always been low, but it gets super cold in the basement, where Collin is, and hot up here so

Collins on a job the next 3 days, so that means I can set the thermostat at 66-69 degrees

Nevermind I forgot some, I have 105

Just spent 45 minutes on the phone just trying to get my meds