mady 🌞

yeah the only reason i'm here is because i couldnt live anywhere else. text me i've been trying to tell you this lmao

i've been squatting here too long

girl live with me pls i'm getting kicked out next summer lol

me too buddy 😞🫂

lol nope thats chronic illness babe! i don't remember not hurting <333333

chronic illness is just listening to people say "look at you all dressed up!" when you wear jeans

He said, "It's all in your head," and I said, "So's everything," but he didn't get it

There is nothing inside us that we "need" to hide from, deny, or disown.

There is plenty inside us that we'll struggle to manage without support, tools, & experience-- but that's not the same thing.

so like...this cancer season got hands

If what you have the bandwidth for today is reading one paragraph, journaling a few sentences, or whispering the most basic prayer-- then that's what you do today. Do what you can w/ the bandwidth you have.

Communicate & affirm to your nervous system that no step is "too small."

had a dream last night where beyoncé tried to convince me knowles is pronounced like cannolis

You have worth even on days you feel worthless. You've been conditioned to feel like garbage about yourself, but that has zero to do w/ your actual value. Remember. Remember.

We can't trust what we've been conditioned to believe, especially about ourselves, by bullies & abusers.

damn i kinda miss being a person

how did i manage to give myself three papercuts today

who else up black & white thinking convincing themselves they're unloveable 😩🙌🏼

We have entered the "The police is saying that if the police is at your door you are not safe call the police immediately" stage of making America great again

ugh i am so fucking isolated from everyone and i miss human connection and other people live their fun and busy lives and i'm likeeee housebound and running out of ways to keep myself sane!!!! i wanna chat with a friend i can only journal so much!!! i want people to remember me

i did itttttttt 😌

but it's also sublime napping weather.........i will try to be strong

putting it out into the universe that i will finish reading my (very short) book today!!!! 🌧️

nah actually it's GOOD to feel it's GOOD to cry it's GOOD to rest

it's okay to feel it's okay to cry it's okay to rest

thoughts are just thoughts

dang i shoulda done this LOLLLLL

😭😭

i just have to rock myself in my own arms forever i think

Build a version of yourself that the younger version of you would have turned to for help.

A mistake some survivors in recovery make is trying to build a version of themselves that rejects & abandons who they once were-- but sustainable recovery is never built on self-rejection.

:(((((( not remembering their voice anymore hurts so bad

man i am sooooo cool and gay